Reading "Drops from a leaking tap" (George Verwer) recently as part of my mission preparation (It is a SUPER book btw) I am just amazed how people can actually make a huge investment in terms of percentages of their incomes for God's work. I have heard of people who give out 90% of their salaries to others and just keep 10%. Its so admirable.
And I still conclude that the best way is still to silently pray to God for all things we need and want then waiting for him though waiting really really does build longsuffering and........patience! I admire those who just wait for God to perform things rather than take things into their own hands. It is very tough but I think God holds back in giving us what we want, or says no, or sometimes even what we NEED, he doesn't give us or doesn't give us so soon so that he can stretch us in the area, in the precise area we need growing/stretching in.
But the cool part about praying is....we entrust the thing into His hands and then probably all you need to do after is wait. simple, maybe.
And reading, meditating and digesting His word daily really keeps you stronger on the inside, from FALLing, from caring overtly about worldly things. No matter how lame this seems or even how boring it may be. It IS sharper than a double edged sword dividing bone and marrow. I think I am more impressed with the Bible now than man-written books.
Monday, November 26, 2012
Monday, October 22, 2012
sudden swerving
What an exciting and also non-exciting week. The oymoron and paradox.
I am not confused. I am just in a paradox-ical week where things can be, depending on how you look at it, very good or very bad. I am not exaggerating. Thus it leaves me at a crossroads once again. And a big thing thrown at me for december which is exciting and cool yet scary....financially.
Sometimes you think your purpose in life is along the lines of :
Matt 13: 57-58
"Only in his hometown and own house is a prophet without honor"
I keep reading about this in a book "Stolen identity" by Ron Cantor and in the bible it popped out (this passage) today. Jesus performed so many miracles and people there in front of him didn't believe in him. his own people.
But then God re-directs your paths along the lines of another country, another people group and another purpose that you didnt expect at all but still love. Not bad, a God that surprises, and God that knows our hearts and all its desires, goals, past.
I am not confused. I am just in a paradox-ical week where things can be, depending on how you look at it, very good or very bad. I am not exaggerating. Thus it leaves me at a crossroads once again. And a big thing thrown at me for december which is exciting and cool yet scary....financially.
Sometimes you think your purpose in life is along the lines of :
Matt 13: 57-58
"Only in his hometown and own house is a prophet without honor"
I keep reading about this in a book "Stolen identity" by Ron Cantor and in the bible it popped out (this passage) today. Jesus performed so many miracles and people there in front of him didn't believe in him. his own people.
But then God re-directs your paths along the lines of another country, another people group and another purpose that you didnt expect at all but still love. Not bad, a God that surprises, and God that knows our hearts and all its desires, goals, past.
Friday, October 12, 2012
a lot of work at work
finally started work......in a job that's really all work. i don't think there's ever a job where you can just do your part (job scope) and not bother or worry about other aspects in the job. so here i am multitasking. not at work now while typing this. people can really take up so much of effort sometimes. sigh. and managing yourself....your own emotions is in itself book-worthy (can be written into a book, as many guys put it). you know what? let's just say that guys are not as emotionally expressive as girls. you guys summarize a whole paragraph of what you think and feel into 2 words? lol lol.
sometimes i think to myself....there's so many people you can "want to please" if you want to. but truth is, do you need to please everyone or just find your own niche? especially in this cold empty world where people just are 2 words - they don't really know how to care for you the way that you want. it's not that they are selfish. it's not that they care only of themselves. but then again who doesnt want to care for themselves first? it's practically human fallen nature. let's just say they don't know how to care for you the way that only GOD knows how to. And. so. its easy to say "having God love you is enough" but is that enough?
i doubt.......but when all else fails.......where there are no humans around, that has to be enough. for that period of time in life, at least.
sometimes i think to myself....there's so many people you can "want to please" if you want to. but truth is, do you need to please everyone or just find your own niche? especially in this cold empty world where people just are 2 words - they don't really know how to care for you the way that you want. it's not that they are selfish. it's not that they care only of themselves. but then again who doesnt want to care for themselves first? it's practically human fallen nature. let's just say they don't know how to care for you the way that only GOD knows how to. And. so. its easy to say "having God love you is enough" but is that enough?
i doubt.......but when all else fails.......where there are no humans around, that has to be enough. for that period of time in life, at least.
Friday, September 28, 2012
blessed week
first time i heard the Aaronic blessing in Hebrew on Sunday evening. sitting in a room of about 40 people, listening to a guy speak on how he came to see that Jesus is the messiah, i kept reminding myself that blessing is way more important than what this world esteems (fame, money etc).
a simple and short prayer. said in your heart with nothing but trust (in Him).is so much more difference than long sessions where there is no trust/faith.the best deal is when you really have nothing to lose..like for instance, no job.then your WHOLE heart and security is in that prayer.
test and see that it really works.
Then i attended a friend's wedding at little india. so good to meet old faces. they are a funny crazy lot.
Monday was quite frenzied for me. 4 interviews. 2 were last minute that came in the morning. (Still feeling lost that point but not hopeless) and the best part? 5 hours of sleep the night before because...i was up late on skype.
By the end of Monday i was offered.
A Job.
Ironic thing is, I actually miss the time when I had no job security so i could simply put all trust in Him. It was quite interesting.
a simple and short prayer. said in your heart with nothing but trust (in Him).is so much more difference than long sessions where there is no trust/faith.the best deal is when you really have nothing to lose..like for instance, no job.then your WHOLE heart and security is in that prayer.
test and see that it really works.
Then i attended a friend's wedding at little india. so good to meet old faces. they are a funny crazy lot.
Monday was quite frenzied for me. 4 interviews. 2 were last minute that came in the morning. (Still feeling lost that point but not hopeless) and the best part? 5 hours of sleep the night before because...i was up late on skype.
By the end of Monday i was offered.
A Job.
Ironic thing is, I actually miss the time when I had no job security so i could simply put all trust in Him. It was quite interesting.
Monday, September 24, 2012
fully immersed
I think only when i am really involved in a situation that's when i really learn...not sketchy surface situations, not hit and run situations, not this not that. you know when you know when you're really focussed
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
just when the prayers were about to settle...
like people of old (ancient times) others and things have changed through simply, prayer. though small these prayers are to a big God so....
Friday, September 14, 2012
Friday, September 7, 2012
the causes of fatigue
sometimes its not that we're tired physically because we didnt get enough sleep. sometimes its really the lack of motivation in what we do. just that.
i really hope to fulfil my dream....am i on the right track. i am really relieved and happy i had an opportunity to really speak to my roommate about her noise level...not that she does things on purpose.
but after telling her how i felt about everything, i felt the problem was 60% solved already. validating my own feelings to the cause of the problem was the way to go. but if the cause of the problem is an animal or thing, just throw it away. haha. gee, i talk like a guy.
i need to work out this weekend again. too much carbo today.
i really hope to fulfil my dream....am i on the right track. i am really relieved and happy i had an opportunity to really speak to my roommate about her noise level...not that she does things on purpose.
but after telling her how i felt about everything, i felt the problem was 60% solved already. validating my own feelings to the cause of the problem was the way to go. but if the cause of the problem is an animal or thing, just throw it away. haha. gee, i talk like a guy.
i need to work out this weekend again. too much carbo today.
Saturday, August 18, 2012
work work
Been pretty on the job these two weeks........and more into the whole thing.......flow.....
Had some shocking moments these weeks but nonetheless pretty ok.......
now i know how to tell if people are lying or not......much better...........
would love to post pics here but oh well..............nah............
hm.........sometimes i really wonder if friends are more important or you know as you get older, family? how does one make that kinda transition from "Hang out with my friends" during leisure time to become "Hang out with family during leisure time"??
Will it be possible for on-the-move people like me........call it outgoing literally not that i like to make NEW friends but the fact is, i like going out literally, out of the house hahaha.
Walking around, jogging, whatever movement or aerobic exercise....exercise i think.
Had some shocking moments these weeks but nonetheless pretty ok.......
now i know how to tell if people are lying or not......much better...........
would love to post pics here but oh well..............nah............
hm.........sometimes i really wonder if friends are more important or you know as you get older, family? how does one make that kinda transition from "Hang out with my friends" during leisure time to become "Hang out with family during leisure time"??
Will it be possible for on-the-move people like me........call it outgoing literally not that i like to make NEW friends but the fact is, i like going out literally, out of the house hahaha.
Walking around, jogging, whatever movement or aerobic exercise....exercise i think.
Friday, August 3, 2012
blogs n facebook
sigh......finally. they took away my voice on the net. which is facebook and this blog....blocked sites list. sigh!!
So now i can only do a real diary! which is not the best thing to happen to moi but oh well.......i have to accept whoever pays our salaries' rules!!
So there....finally got my voice back for short while.
what a totally nuts week. shall not elaborate but oh well.......
NOT happening or fun to have to go thru again.......but what can i do???
But for some reason God is good to me.....and sustains....a lot.
I survived no facebk, no blog and no some other things. for a full work week.
life is tough. but arent we all made of tougher things than that!
So now i can only do a real diary! which is not the best thing to happen to moi but oh well.......i have to accept whoever pays our salaries' rules!!
So there....finally got my voice back for short while.
what a totally nuts week. shall not elaborate but oh well.......
NOT happening or fun to have to go thru again.......but what can i do???
But for some reason God is good to me.....and sustains....a lot.
I survived no facebk, no blog and no some other things. for a full work week.
life is tough. but arent we all made of tougher things than that!
Friday, July 27, 2012
fell in love with this word of God today
“Trusting is being confident of what we hope for, convinced about things
we do not see.” Hebrews 11:1 CJB
20 By trusting, Yitz’chak in his blessings over Ya‘akov and Esav made reference to events yet to come.
21 By trusting, Ya‘akov, when he was dying, blessed each of Yosef’s sons, leaning on his walking-stick as he bowed in prayer.[g]
22 By trusting, Yosef, near the end of his life, remembered about the Exodus of the people of Isra’el and gave instructions about what to do with his bones.
23 By trusting, the parents of Moshe hid him for three months after he was born, because they saw that he was a beautiful child,[h] and they weren’t afraid of the king’s decree.
24 By trusting, Moshe, after he had grown up,[i] refused to be called the son of Pharaoh’s daughter. 25 He chose being mistreated along with God’s people rather than enjoying the passing pleasures of sin. 26 He had come to regard abuse suffered on behalf of the Messiah as greater riches than the treasures of Egypt, for he kept his eyes fixed on the reward.
27 By trusting, he left Egypt, not fearing the king’s anger; he persevered as one who sees the unseen
28 By trusting, he obeyed the requirements for the Pesach, including the smearing of the blood, so that the Destroyer of the firstborn would not touch the firstborn of Isra’el.
29 By trusting, they walked through the Red Sea as through dry land; when the Egyptians tried to do it, the sea swallowed them up.
30 By trusting, the walls of Yericho fell down — after the people had marched around them for seven days.
31 By trusting, Rachav the prostitute welcomed the spies and therefore did not die along with those who were disobedient.
32 What more should I say? There isn’t time to tell about Gid‘on, Barak, Shimshon, Yiftach, David, Sh’mu’el and the prophets; 33 who, through trusting, conquered kingdoms, worked righteousness, received what was promised, shut the mouths of lions,[j] 34 quenched the power of fire, escaped the edge of the sword, had their weakness turned to strength, grew mighty in battle and routed foreign armies. 35 Women received back their dead resurrected; other people were stretched on the rack and beaten to death, refusing to be ransomed, so that they would gain a better resurrection. 36 Others underwent the trials of being mocked and whipped, then chained and imprisoned. 37 They were stoned, sawed in two, murdered by the sword; they went about clothed in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted, mistreated, 38 wandering about in deserts and mountains, living in caves and holes in the ground! The world was not worthy of them
39 All of these had their merit attested because of their trusting. Nevertheless, they did not receive what had been promised, 40 because God had planned something better that would involve us, so that only with us would they be brought to the goal.
Hebrews 11 (CJB)
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
i should count myself
so 'lucky' that i had a diarrhoea this week....started on Mon. stopped at 1pm Mon.
Then started again this morning....
I conclude, i cannot drink 1) cold milk tea at least these few days. something about the equation of milk, ice and tea together that's so wrong. what, three's a crowd? lol.....my taiwanese friend whom i met in taiwan told me milk and tea go together but not with ice.
Ice and tea
Ice and milk go together.
but her logic was different. she said it weakens the bones.
So anyway.....having this weight loss programme doesnt hurt. everything i take in came out yesterday. Instant bulimia or something. ( i am perfectly aware i am being gross but i need to bcos there is no subtle language for such happenings yesterday )
And evidently i have actually lost weight thru water loss.
my clothes are slightly baggier not kidding.
i hope this is just is system clearing every like 2-3 times a year. or after a period of time where i didnt eat that much.
Thankfully i'm still me and it doesnt hurt....in fact i don't even know why or how i can have "system clearing" without any aches n pain.
All's well or Allswell for work. at least for now. this new working place reminds me of my days in meinhardt. where i was at least 50% carefree.
I hope to be carefree forever but i guess no one can.....hm.....i hope to maintain the frienships that's been given me.....
Aside from gross topics (like outputs) and work and friendships, i found inspiration in the movie Abraham Lincoln the Vampire Slayer last week. It had metaphoric meaning i think. and part of his famous speech quite good:
"A house divided against itself cannot stand. I believe this government cannot endure, permanently, half slave and half free......"
Then started again this morning....
I conclude, i cannot drink 1) cold milk tea at least these few days. something about the equation of milk, ice and tea together that's so wrong. what, three's a crowd? lol.....my taiwanese friend whom i met in taiwan told me milk and tea go together but not with ice.
Ice and tea
Ice and milk go together.
but her logic was different. she said it weakens the bones.
So anyway.....having this weight loss programme doesnt hurt. everything i take in came out yesterday. Instant bulimia or something. ( i am perfectly aware i am being gross but i need to bcos there is no subtle language for such happenings yesterday )
And evidently i have actually lost weight thru water loss.
my clothes are slightly baggier not kidding.
i hope this is just is system clearing every like 2-3 times a year. or after a period of time where i didnt eat that much.
Thankfully i'm still me and it doesnt hurt....in fact i don't even know why or how i can have "system clearing" without any aches n pain.
All's well or Allswell for work. at least for now. this new working place reminds me of my days in meinhardt. where i was at least 50% carefree.
I hope to be carefree forever but i guess no one can.....hm.....i hope to maintain the frienships that's been given me.....
Aside from gross topics (like outputs) and work and friendships, i found inspiration in the movie Abraham Lincoln the Vampire Slayer last week. It had metaphoric meaning i think. and part of his famous speech quite good:
"A house divided against itself cannot stand. I believe this government cannot endure, permanently, half slave and half free......"
Thursday, July 19, 2012
handova
I was pleasantly surprised when i went for an unplanned group outing at the Home Club within c.q. that day.
it was live comedy called Comedy Masala.
altogether about 8-10 solo perfomers came onstage and did 5 to 20 minutes worth of talking and goofing around (some of them) but mostly slightly on the fringe jokes if u get what i mean.
But nonetheless some were so good they brought the funny side out of singaporeans and other nationalities including their own. Tons of racist jokes too! hahaha!
it was live comedy called Comedy Masala.
altogether about 8-10 solo perfomers came onstage and did 5 to 20 minutes worth of talking and goofing around (some of them) but mostly slightly on the fringe jokes if u get what i mean.
But nonetheless some were so good they brought the funny side out of singaporeans and other nationalities including their own. Tons of racist jokes too! hahaha!
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Friday, July 13, 2012
Blessed birthday greetings to you too! May you continue to grow deeply in love with our Saviour who will direct your every path and future plans. Matthew 6:33 is always precious for growing teenagers and young adults as I've learnt my lessons!!!!
- Pauline S.
This morning my boss asked my supervisor in front of me and colleague if i was malay or indonesian or indian......hmm......then when i said "chinese" he started speaking in malay just to test if i understood him
This morning my boss asked my supervisor in front of me and colleague if i was malay or indonesian or indian......hmm......then when i said "chinese" he started speaking in malay just to test if i understood him
By Susie Shellenberger (Editor of Brio Magazine, on her own blog):
Is God really good?
Or are we just swallowing that simplybecause the Psalmist tells us so in
Psalm 145?
In my last entry, I asked:
Why doesn’t God remove temptation, obliterate the devil, destroy the demons?
Here are two reasons:
First: God created man in His image (Genesis 1:26).
Therefore, because He's sovereign,
He gave us a certain measure of sovereignty, as well.
In other words . . . He didn’t create us as robots.
He allows us to make our own daily choices.He won't force us into His ways.
He won't MAKE us live according to His Word.
He allows us the freedom of choice.
And many times, the choices we make
bring hurt to ourselves.
So to shake our fist at GOD
and say, "How come, God?"
is unfair.
Second: Not only did God make you in His image
and give you a certain degree of sovereignty,
but God made you for a purpose—
and that's intimacy.
God the Father desires that we love Him.
And because true love demands a choice,
He won't force Himself upon us
but will give an alternative to us.
The alternative is evil.
The alternative is sin and self.
So if I choose to ignore God and say,
"I don't want to develop intimacy with You.
I want to live for myself and call my own shots."
Then the only alternative I have
is in the direction of evil.
And God will allow me that liberty.
The Old Testament prophet Jeremiah
said that it's only because of God's mercies
that we're not ALL consumed (Lamentations 3:22).
Really, every one of us should have been consumed
a long time ago. It's only because of God's goodness
and mercy that we're alive today!
This is true spiritually and literally.
Think about it:
The air we breathe is composed in
nitrogen
oxygen
and a few assorted gasses.
If the oxygen content was a mere 2% higher,
the world would catch fire and we'd all burn!
If the nitrogen content was 2% higher,
we'd all be poisoned and die immediately.
Who keeps the atmosphere in such perfect balance?
God.
Yet we've all rebelled against Him.
We've all sinned against Him
But He is good and merciful to every one of us.
He's slow to anger
gracious
full of mercy and
lets us continue on and on and on
until we finally come to the place
where we finally bow
in repentance and give our lives to Him.
The question isn’t, “Why is there evil?”
The question is, “Why is God so good?”
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
strangers
Hebrews 13:2 is a haunting one. "Remember to welcome strangers, because some who have done this have welcomed angels without knowing it." How many angels have we missed because we were too busy?
Compassion doesn't ask for limitations. It searches for opportunity.
Compassion doesn't ask for limitations. It searches for opportunity.
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
all in a day's work
Nothing more fulfilling than working hard at a job you can do....or a job you like to do. And then having great sleep at night.
Monday, July 9, 2012
recovered
I am so so happy and relieved and grateful my phone which i thot was going nuts since two days ago, has been recovered thanks to Nokia Service Call Centre.
I can't believe the importance of over-the-phone help, that it can be sooo.........helpful........i know, cheesy.
Alas.....i realised i have been idolising my dearest handphone to a certain extent. Counterfeit gods....a phone? Yes that is possible. so gotta be careful
I love the Spidey movie this time though i was seated right at the FRONT row. 7m away from screen only. I thought it would be as boring as Captain America or Avengers (which i fell asleep at btw). But.......it was SO good! Almost, almost wholesome. Had some Solidly good values/lessons to learn
.....
I can't believe the importance of over-the-phone help, that it can be sooo.........helpful........i know, cheesy.
Alas.....i realised i have been idolising my dearest handphone to a certain extent. Counterfeit gods....a phone? Yes that is possible. so gotta be careful
I love the Spidey movie this time though i was seated right at the FRONT row. 7m away from screen only. I thought it would be as boring as Captain America or Avengers (which i fell asleep at btw). But.......it was SO good! Almost, almost wholesome. Had some Solidly good values/lessons to learn
.....
Saturday, July 7, 2012
the day's pledge
very appropriate...
Flipping open today's 40-day fast booklet i see that today's entry is about The Pledge but meant for males to be and stay honorable.
What does having such an entry on my birthday say? Lolz....
I cant believe i accomplished so much at work this week....for like the first time in ages! I actually love numbers now. I think its about not being able to go out for lunch.....we get free lunch here though.
Flipping open today's 40-day fast booklet i see that today's entry is about The Pledge but meant for males to be and stay honorable.
What does having such an entry on my birthday say? Lolz....
I cant believe i accomplished so much at work this week....for like the first time in ages! I actually love numbers now. I think its about not being able to go out for lunch.....we get free lunch here though.
Friday, July 6, 2012
better
"How i wish i could talk better......sing better, smile more confidently, be more confident, forget the past....etc etc......'better'"
The beautiful thing about God is He likes and Totally accepts us the way we are
And not as we Should be.
It's hard to grasp this fact with our natural minds when the rat race everywhere chances upon every opportunity to be competitive, making us fear to become last, or fear lagging behind others, or just fear about everything negative and disouraging that happened to us in the past.
And we don't need to keep trying to BE the best all the time or DO our best all the time or outshine everyone else....when we know and are totally sure just how loved and accepted we really really are.
The beautiful thing about God is He likes and Totally accepts us the way we are
And not as we Should be.
It's hard to grasp this fact with our natural minds when the rat race everywhere chances upon every opportunity to be competitive, making us fear to become last, or fear lagging behind others, or just fear about everything negative and disouraging that happened to us in the past.
And we don't need to keep trying to BE the best all the time or DO our best all the time or outshine everyone else....when we know and are totally sure just how loved and accepted we really really are.
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
strong and GOOD purpose
I need the above title to make myself move again.
If not it defeats the whole reason for me to move??!?!!!
And yes i may come across as rude or impatient
But at least i know i am not moving aimlessly in life.
It beats the conforming, subdued and compliant me which lacks purpose in life.
I cannot stand myself just sitting there and accepting all rules people throw at me.
Without seeing reason behind it???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If not it defeats the whole reason for me to move??!?!!!
And yes i may come across as rude or impatient
But at least i know i am not moving aimlessly in life.
It beats the conforming, subdued and compliant me which lacks purpose in life.
I cannot stand myself just sitting there and accepting all rules people throw at me.
Without seeing reason behind it???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, July 2, 2012
complicated
Am i complicated? I try to make things simple but actually they do get more complicated that i think not doing anything would be better. lol.
Friday, June 29, 2012
why is it people only pray when
things happen. Why??? Why????????? Why can't people seek God all the time?
Interesting week. I learnt a lot this week like how seriously,
1) Money doesnt make people happy. It is a practical thing and makes u FEEL secure but doesnt make you deeply happy. I have seen people that earn almost nothing and are extremely satisfied with purpose in life.
2) Being open to God's direction, no matter what it is.....may actually be for good. I was extremely freaked out when i was "dumped" into my Degree course in university, and it was none of my top 7 choices....it was probably my 8th choice....but God indeed gave me one of the happiest 4 years there. happiest and carefree. Except each semester's 3 weeks before exams.
oh well.....i just cannot be bothered to argue with guys posting 'funny' comments on my blog. don't u think it makes you laugh?
Interesting week. I learnt a lot this week like how seriously,
1) Money doesnt make people happy. It is a practical thing and makes u FEEL secure but doesnt make you deeply happy. I have seen people that earn almost nothing and are extremely satisfied with purpose in life.
2) Being open to God's direction, no matter what it is.....may actually be for good. I was extremely freaked out when i was "dumped" into my Degree course in university, and it was none of my top 7 choices....it was probably my 8th choice....but God indeed gave me one of the happiest 4 years there. happiest and carefree. Except each semester's 3 weeks before exams.
oh well.....i just cannot be bothered to argue with guys posting 'funny' comments on my blog. don't u think it makes you laugh?
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Friday, June 22, 2012
no faith in this world
Going very deep into questioning myself and others, i think the best gifts in life are not what people think make one happy but rather the simple things in life.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
directness
many times people try to change their moods by changing outer circumstances.
I think it works but not on a deep deep level. like the core of one's being.
but i think sometimes God gives u common sense to not do or do certain things. And the wisdom to be direct about it. to others.
I think it works but not on a deep deep level. like the core of one's being.
but i think sometimes God gives u common sense to not do or do certain things. And the wisdom to be direct about it. to others.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
sudden fatigue
i never knew tiredness over at stretch of 5-6 days can suddenly hit you all at once. it happened to me......
but it was kinda fun. cos i talk strange, funny and i dont make any sense when i am very very tired!
But i do very well in boardgames where it involved acquiring resources, when i am tired. i know this doesnt make sense again but thats me.
So.....moral of the story is i really gotta get my 6 to 6 and half hours of good sleep each day if not....
but it was kinda fun. cos i talk strange, funny and i dont make any sense when i am very very tired!
But i do very well in boardgames where it involved acquiring resources, when i am tired. i know this doesnt make sense again but thats me.
So.....moral of the story is i really gotta get my 6 to 6 and half hours of good sleep each day if not....
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
prayer
just realised that i am seriously un-deep in my prayers and lacking faith these two weeks.
I guess its the busyness of worklife starting my new job and such. though on one hand i crave the depth of free time and space to do prayer walks, i believe there's a season for everything (under heaven hahaha cliche!!) and i think this could be purposeful and full utilisation of time.
The unearthing of so many issues came up this week and i am looking into my past as far as 13 years ago to actually "deal with" certain things. I don't think I'll ever forget what happened but i think it was more for good than for bad. ;)
I guess its the busyness of worklife starting my new job and such. though on one hand i crave the depth of free time and space to do prayer walks, i believe there's a season for everything (under heaven hahaha cliche!!) and i think this could be purposeful and full utilisation of time.
The unearthing of so many issues came up this week and i am looking into my past as far as 13 years ago to actually "deal with" certain things. I don't think I'll ever forget what happened but i think it was more for good than for bad. ;)
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Sunday, June 3, 2012
tiredness cos i went to sentosa beach part the night before i wrote this post
Haha, now not so scared of dogs after meeting so many of these stray friends in myanmar....they were all nice the most was they trailed or followed behind you for a while then gave up if you don't entertain them with food or touch them. no barkings except to each other.
lol.
burma looks a bit like singapore....the city layout, the way buildings are placed on the streets. traces of the british colony i guess.
they have such a insightful museum 5 levels on world knowledge not just about their country. i spent like 4 hours in it.....really looking at things there......it was worth every dollar spent on entry.
visions of people - not just family and some friends kept coming to me while i was there touring and exploring the place. it could be from God....cos i started praying n all that for these people.
God is interesting, i think. just imagine, when he made adam and eve they had absolutely no choice of who their spouse would be. its like "here take her" "here take him" and done deal. no bargains, no exchange.
in this modern day context some people like 20% would embrace this idea to spare their brain cells and nerve wrecking dating or hunting.
80% would object this as they want to hunt or date around first before settling.
so let's see i have been going on dates for the last.....5 years since i thought of this school of thought.
from experience, the quality dates usually come when you're contented with LIFE and purpose in life. the haphazard ones usually comes when you're in the mode of looking. trust me on that. the logic is this: when you're in the mode of looking, you
1) are not BEING your true self and natural mode or who u usually are. so how can anyone KNOW the real you and like you for you?
2) you get the dates that are most available aka desperate so most likely....ok possible but Slimmer chance of getting people being on their natural mode and being themselves.
lol.
burma looks a bit like singapore....the city layout, the way buildings are placed on the streets. traces of the british colony i guess.
they have such a insightful museum 5 levels on world knowledge not just about their country. i spent like 4 hours in it.....really looking at things there......it was worth every dollar spent on entry.
visions of people - not just family and some friends kept coming to me while i was there touring and exploring the place. it could be from God....cos i started praying n all that for these people.
God is interesting, i think. just imagine, when he made adam and eve they had absolutely no choice of who their spouse would be. its like "here take her" "here take him" and done deal. no bargains, no exchange.
in this modern day context some people like 20% would embrace this idea to spare their brain cells and nerve wrecking dating or hunting.
80% would object this as they want to hunt or date around first before settling.
so let's see i have been going on dates for the last.....5 years since i thought of this school of thought.
from experience, the quality dates usually come when you're contented with LIFE and purpose in life. the haphazard ones usually comes when you're in the mode of looking. trust me on that. the logic is this: when you're in the mode of looking, you
1) are not BEING your true self and natural mode or who u usually are. so how can anyone KNOW the real you and like you for you?
2) you get the dates that are most available aka desperate so most likely....ok possible but Slimmer chance of getting people being on their natural mode and being themselves.
Thursday, May 24, 2012
doing too much or little
My little adventure at one of the foreign embassies this week was, on hindsight very amusing and entertaining. it was not at that point in time when i was all in pain from doing practically a half marathon (walking 8-10km) while having cramps, pacing back and forth orchard road to get documents, hunt for a place to take instant photograph, collect documents from people....trying to reason with the administration personnel doing visas, QUEUING in the long queue, being present from 9.20am till 12.20pm till it was finally my turn and i was STILL sent back and told "to come again tomorrow with all the documents".
But they were very fair. They did that to every person regardless of nationality, colour etc. Anyone who had one missing document was sent off and told "to come back tomorrow with all the documents". Some in the queue were frustrated, even angry and said "this is stupid!" but i was just amazed by how inflexible things were with the people there....hahaha. But it cuts down on their job and saves energy for them (The administration personnel).
And i thought, maybe we are just doing too much. We make things easy for everyone that we end up doing all the work for others. Simplicity is so much easier and taking a step back to smell the grass/flowers (i forgot which), taking siestas (lol.......not everyday of course) and enjoying huge grasslands, endless beaches, mountains, unending rivers would be so nice.
And i think the cough made me really see that i need to stop giving so much tuition or at least tuition that involves me running around like a madwoman.....the travel time and effort is just taking a toll on me. So i will just simply do less. full stop.
And i think the cough made me really see that i need to stop giving so much tuition or at least tuition that involves me running around like a madwoman.....the travel time and effort is just taking a toll on me. So i will just simply do less. full stop.
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
what is really important
Sometimes I am just thankful to be where I am.
But I yearn to be out there in a different place.
Sigh!
But I yearn to be out there in a different place.
Sigh!
Friday, May 18, 2012
*cough cough* part 2
How dreadful talking about something to unhealthy again. But......this is meant to be a good post. So...let me conclude my chapter with Miss/Mister Cough.
On wed this week i went on the track again, running or jogging. My expected 4 rounds became 11 but the last 2 were slow jogs. I thought this might help my respiratory system recover faster.
However nothing changed!
So i frantically read chapters of the "Bible cure for Asthma" by Don Colbert on the way to work on Thurs and Fri (today). Thurs i read about cleaning the house of dust, dust mites (vacuum with hepa vacuum), use airtight pillow cases and bed sheets (where do u get them in singapore?), keeping animals away and watching out for mildew (this exists in singapore HDB flats?).
THEN this morning i flipped open the book on my favourite bus again (brings me back to my Secondary 4 adventures to town to "study" when my classmates and i were more like watching movies, eating snacks and absorbing the aura of orchard road).
Breathing was the next chapter of the asthma book. I am just so thankful God created the NOSE. Yes, i never appreciated its intelligent design and function till now. It's actually for Filtering, cleaning and humidifying the air we take in before it reaches the lungs. So breathing thru the mouth may cause more coughing cos the air is not as clean and probably dry.
Deeper breaths help. And the jogging may actually worsen the coughing because we breathe short, sharp breaths that time and might use the mouth more than the nose.
My daily encouragement and food.....i am weak without His word -
“for God is not unrighteous to forget your work and the love which ye showed toward his name, in that ye ministered unto the saints, and still do minister.”Hebrews 6:10
On wed this week i went on the track again, running or jogging. My expected 4 rounds became 11 but the last 2 were slow jogs. I thought this might help my respiratory system recover faster.
However nothing changed!
So i frantically read chapters of the "Bible cure for Asthma" by Don Colbert on the way to work on Thurs and Fri (today). Thurs i read about cleaning the house of dust, dust mites (vacuum with hepa vacuum), use airtight pillow cases and bed sheets (where do u get them in singapore?), keeping animals away and watching out for mildew (this exists in singapore HDB flats?).
THEN this morning i flipped open the book on my favourite bus again (brings me back to my Secondary 4 adventures to town to "study" when my classmates and i were more like watching movies, eating snacks and absorbing the aura of orchard road).
Breathing was the next chapter of the asthma book. I am just so thankful God created the NOSE. Yes, i never appreciated its intelligent design and function till now. It's actually for Filtering, cleaning and humidifying the air we take in before it reaches the lungs. So breathing thru the mouth may cause more coughing cos the air is not as clean and probably dry.
Deeper breaths help. And the jogging may actually worsen the coughing because we breathe short, sharp breaths that time and might use the mouth more than the nose.
My daily encouragement and food.....i am weak without His word -
“for God is not unrighteous to forget your work and the love which ye showed toward his name, in that ye ministered unto the saints, and still do minister.”Hebrews 6:10
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
what the cough taught me
this crazy cough...though not even infectious, not the kind with green phlegm, has taught me tons and tons.
Like for instance...i did research on it onlilne on 3 medical websites. its dry cough but non infectious kind and probably due to external dust, fumes, bad air or cold air or dry air. or particles like sugar cane pulp, popcorn kernel that got trapped in respiratory system.... only on people with some kind of asthmatic background. i have sinus background.
other than diagnosing myself, i have also been seeking cures for it. i tried lotsa sleep. didnt help. i tried lotsa warm water. only medium temperature water helps, not hot not cold. lukewarm. sweet drinks like honey lemon, lemon tea helped. Ginger dessets and ginger helped.
the best thing was serious confident prayer over it. since yesterday night when i did that it has reduced in quantity (no. of coughs now has dropped to one-offs and as opposed to a horrendous chain of it) and the MAGNITUDE or intensity of it has reduced to mild. how nice. now its more of a relaxed pace as well. lol.
So Miss/Mister (what gender was it anyway?) Cough has become a friend because it taught me to trust Him (God) more. And always, Prayer is far more effective than earthly remedies.
Like for instance...i did research on it onlilne on 3 medical websites. its dry cough but non infectious kind and probably due to external dust, fumes, bad air or cold air or dry air. or particles like sugar cane pulp, popcorn kernel that got trapped in respiratory system.... only on people with some kind of asthmatic background. i have sinus background.
other than diagnosing myself, i have also been seeking cures for it. i tried lotsa sleep. didnt help. i tried lotsa warm water. only medium temperature water helps, not hot not cold. lukewarm. sweet drinks like honey lemon, lemon tea helped. Ginger dessets and ginger helped.
the best thing was serious confident prayer over it. since yesterday night when i did that it has reduced in quantity (no. of coughs now has dropped to one-offs and as opposed to a horrendous chain of it) and the MAGNITUDE or intensity of it has reduced to mild. how nice. now its more of a relaxed pace as well. lol.
So Miss/Mister (what gender was it anyway?) Cough has become a friend because it taught me to trust Him (God) more. And always, Prayer is far more effective than earthly remedies.
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
biblegateway.com
“Walk in wisdom toward them that are without, redeeming the time. Let your speech be always with grace, seasoned with salt, that ye may know how ye ought to answer each one.” Colossians 4:5-6 ASV
As I counseled you when I was leaving for Macedonia, stay on in Ephesus, so that you may order certain people who are teaching a different doctrine to stop. Have them stop devoting their attention to myths and never-ending genealogies; these divert people to speculating instead of doing God’s work, which requires trust.
The purpose of this order is to promote love from a clean heart, from a good conscience and from sincere trust. Some, by aiming amiss, have wandered off into fruitless discussion. They want to be teachers of Torah, but they understand neither their own words nor the matters about which they make such emphatic pronouncements.
We know that the Torah is good, provided one uses it in the way the Torah itself intends. We are aware that Torah is not for a person who is righteous, but for those who are heedless of Torah and rebellious, ungodly and sinful, wicked and worldly, for people who kill their fathers and mothers, for murderers, the sexually immoral — both heterosexual and homosexual — slave dealers, liars, perjurers, and anyone who acts contrary to the sound teaching that accords with the Good News of the glorious and blessed God.
This Good News was entrusted to me; and I thank the one who has given me strength, the Messiah Yeshua, our Lord, that he considered me trustworthy enough to put me in his service, even though I used to be a man who blasphemed and persecuted and was arrogant! But I received mercy because I had acted in unbelief, not understanding what I was doing.
Our Lord’s grace overflowed to me with trust and love that come through the Messiah Yeshua. So here is a statement you can trust, one that fully deserves to be accepted: the Messiah came into the world to save sinners, and I’m the number one sinner! But this is precisely why I received mercy — so that in me, as the number one sinner, Yeshua the Messiah might demonstrate how very patient he is, as an example to those who would later come to trust in him and thereby have eternal life. So to the King — eternal, imperishable and invisible, the only God there is — let there be honor and glory for ever and ever! Amen. — 1 Timothy 1:3-17 (CJB)
Sunday, May 6, 2012
dear you
please deal with all your issues then let me know when you're all ah...ok and all happy deep down. you can't change what happened in your past but you can accept it with a strained smile, half smile...or a shocked look or an honest sigh.
and things even bad things happen for an ultimate purpose. the lord is sovereign after all. and i think God actually HEALS....not sure about the time part like how long it takes people to heal and all that. depends on how much they want to get healed? or seek for it?
this is all so complex. i think even if i had a doctorate in psychology i wouldn't be able to solve many life's problems. counselling maybe but how effective i dunno.
Friday, May 4, 2012
just. simply. wait.
Sometimes there's not or NOTHING you can do about something because simply, and reasonably and rationally, it's not within your control or anyone's control.
So the best and makes-most-sense thing to do is just. simply. to. wait. for God.
Saturday, April 28, 2012
when i don't, i do
i cant believe i actually genuinely enjoyed my tuition session yesterday from the bottom of my heart.
i actually was
1)myself with her (14 yr old girl),
2)shared about some parts of my life (interesting parts)
3)joked about life and
4)laughed a lot
so sometimes the irony is..........this. that when i don't (think i like something) i do....when i do (think i like something), i don't.
there's this verse in the bible...and i don't wanna spoil the whole thing at this point of time. God help me....?
Monday, April 23, 2012
deep
From past experience and observation over time and situations i have been put in sometimes unwillingly due to my 1) large extended family (cousins etc), 2) social situations because of singapore being so area-small we have to bump into people all the time, 3) being in a community no matter how you try to move away from your own house
i feel, the best thing in life is really just to have a very strong and clear purpose in life. the other things in life can be really disappointing or people can be irritating but if your purpose and goal in life is clear and you are really looking to fulfil it and your hope, confidence and joy is in God, you will be totally deeply, deep-down, happy and positive and at peace.
Friday, April 20, 2012
the wallet
(for own records and if people want to read this and they understand the way i write...)
something happened that was very strange this week. i seriously remember bringing the wallet out of the office, on the mrt, home for dinner, out to meet a friend, out to clark quay, where i am usually go.....
I discovered it was missing only at about early in the morning when i was about to take a cab.
So as usual i panicked...and my mind went blank. i couldn't even recall the day's events. who i met, where i went.....plus there was this strange "drunk" girl with i and my friend who was like babbling and undecided about what she was going to do. that was quite tiring...talking to her....
then after like 2 and half hours sleep....borrowed 10 bucks from my friend, walked to the mrt, took a train......panicked in the train, prayed those heart-felt prayer to Him.
Then i was planning out my day and finances (10 bucks) how to allocate for transport for getting my atm cards all redone etc.
THEN.......
I reached the office. Walked up the stairs. I had the shock of my life.
The WALLET was right there ON MY TABLE! I CANT BELIEVE IT! i didn't take it home?
something happened that was very strange this week. i seriously remember bringing the wallet out of the office, on the mrt, home for dinner, out to meet a friend, out to clark quay, where i am usually go.....
I discovered it was missing only at about early in the morning when i was about to take a cab.
So as usual i panicked...and my mind went blank. i couldn't even recall the day's events. who i met, where i went.....plus there was this strange "drunk" girl with i and my friend who was like babbling and undecided about what she was going to do. that was quite tiring...talking to her....
then after like 2 and half hours sleep....borrowed 10 bucks from my friend, walked to the mrt, took a train......panicked in the train, prayed those heart-felt prayer to Him.
Then i was planning out my day and finances (10 bucks) how to allocate for transport for getting my atm cards all redone etc.
THEN.......
I reached the office. Walked up the stairs. I had the shock of my life.
The WALLET was right there ON MY TABLE! I CANT BELIEVE IT! i didn't take it home?
Monday, April 16, 2012
things NOT to write on your blog
Hahaha i was told this by one of my mentors long ago....its hilarious:
Things not to write on your blog:
1) Your criteria for Mr. or Miss Right. This is because people interested will start acting or "being" or "having" the criteria you want. oh well.....i duno how this makes sense but it's good to have somewhat somesort of mystery.....i think.....
to be continued......
Things not to write on your blog:
1) Your criteria for Mr. or Miss Right. This is because people interested will start acting or "being" or "having" the criteria you want. oh well.....i duno how this makes sense but it's good to have somewhat somesort of mystery.....i think.....
to be continued......
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Monday, April 9, 2012
then again....
Easter weekend just passed. and in a whirl. so soon it was gone just like that...
I was pretty frenzied as well...oh well don't want to talk about it...but be assured it was very happening in a good and bad way. But interesting nonetheless.
So anyway...that song in the previous entry never fails to inspire me and keep me reminded of the start, where things all began......which is with Him (God himself). All things came from Him and through Him anyway...so it all belongs to Him.
And despite my thoughts sometimes slightly swaying towards the stressed-and-negative edge at times....especially when I have to deal with the difficult...situations, and i just wanna go far away and take a long breather and do what i am passionate about and the fresh air, somehow God always provides a way out. I don't know how but He does.
And so here I am, hoping and praying for breakthroughs in some places. for good of course. there are quite a few items on my prayer list. sometimes we wonder why we even pray but if you don't even pray it could go worse so should pray at least or try to. i'm not sure if people connect with God more through prayer or thru singing or thru doing but oh well.......
I was pretty frenzied as well...oh well don't want to talk about it...but be assured it was very happening in a good and bad way. But interesting nonetheless.
So anyway...that song in the previous entry never fails to inspire me and keep me reminded of the start, where things all began......which is with Him (God himself). All things came from Him and through Him anyway...so it all belongs to Him.
And despite my thoughts sometimes slightly swaying towards the stressed-and-negative edge at times....especially when I have to deal with the difficult...situations, and i just wanna go far away and take a long breather and do what i am passionate about and the fresh air, somehow God always provides a way out. I don't know how but He does.
And so here I am, hoping and praying for breakthroughs in some places. for good of course. there are quite a few items on my prayer list. sometimes we wonder why we even pray but if you don't even pray it could go worse so should pray at least or try to. i'm not sure if people connect with God more through prayer or thru singing or thru doing but oh well.......
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
lyrics to be heeded to
If faith can move the mountains
Let the mountains move
We come with expectation
Waiting here for You, waiting here for You
You're the Lord of all creation
And still You know my heart
The Author of Salvation
You've loved us from the start
Waiting here for You
With our hands lifted high in praise
And it's You we adore
Singing Alleluia
You are everything You've promised
Your faithfulness is true
And we're desperate for Your presence
All we need is You
Bridge
Singing Alleluia
Alleluia, alleluia, alleluia
"Waiting here for you" by Chris Tomlin, Martin Smith and Jesse Reeves
Happy despite the lowness or "dead" love life. at least for now...tons of things to do and to be done. yay! for the "to-do" list......ergh......
Let the mountains move
We come with expectation
Waiting here for You, waiting here for You
You're the Lord of all creation
And still You know my heart
The Author of Salvation
You've loved us from the start
Waiting here for You
With our hands lifted high in praise
And it's You we adore
Singing Alleluia
You are everything You've promised
Your faithfulness is true
And we're desperate for Your presence
All we need is You
Bridge
Singing Alleluia
Alleluia, alleluia, alleluia
"Waiting here for you" by Chris Tomlin, Martin Smith and Jesse Reeves
Happy despite the lowness or "dead" love life. at least for now...tons of things to do and to be done. yay! for the "to-do" list......ergh......
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
if u desire things of God, it's yours
Colossians 3:16
Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly; in all wisdom teaching and admonishing one another with psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts unto God.
Psalms 1: 1 Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the wicked, Nor standeth in the way of sinners, Nor sitteth in the seat of scoffers
Romans 8:26
And in like manner the Spirit also helpeth our infirmity: for we know not how to pray as we ought; but the Spirit himself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered;
Romans 8:34
who is he that condemneth? It is Christ Jesus that died, yea rather, that was raised from the dead, who is at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us.
Hebrews 7:25
Wherefore also he is able to save to the uttermost them that draw near unto God through him, seeing he ever liveth to make intercession for them.
Isaiah 53:12
Therefore will I divide him a portion with the great, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong; because he poured out his soul unto death, and was numbered with the transgressors: yet he bare the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors.
Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly; in all wisdom teaching and admonishing one another with psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts unto God.
Psalms 1: 1 Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the wicked, Nor standeth in the way of sinners, Nor sitteth in the seat of scoffers
Romans 8:26
And in like manner the Spirit also helpeth our infirmity: for we know not how to pray as we ought; but the Spirit himself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered;
Romans 8:34
who is he that condemneth? It is Christ Jesus that died, yea rather, that was raised from the dead, who is at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us.
Hebrews 7:25
Wherefore also he is able to save to the uttermost them that draw near unto God through him, seeing he ever liveth to make intercession for them.
Isaiah 53:12
Therefore will I divide him a portion with the great, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong; because he poured out his soul unto death, and was numbered with the transgressors: yet he bare the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors.
Friday, March 23, 2012
what starts out bad can turn out good
Encouragement for the week. or day.
Your day might start out totally horrendous and shocking even. but if your heart and soul is set on staying faithful, meaning trusting and seeking Him, not taking things into your own hands (a.k.a. retaliating) and knowing He works for the good of those who love Him, your day might have all kinds of strangest twists for the good.
I just had a firsthand experience of how my day was slightly "interesting" at first, meaning getting accused non verbally by people on a professional basis during one of those conferences then...having headache, then not getting any responses or MOSTLY NEGATIVE responses to my smses and whatsapp messages about joining me for dinner so i ended up alone for dinner (but i think God did it so i have to spend time talking to Him) then going for a long walk to get dinner (1hour30 min walking but by choice) then waiting 20 min for a bus which i took and was still late (for choir practice).
then....
I immediately felt welcomed. by the atmosphere and people. They apologised for not emailing me....can't believe it. Offered cupcakes for someone's bday. They wanted to meet for a chat next week about joining choir. I also happened to meet one of your buddies who happen to be passing by the church (seriously, not kidding). Coincidence.
He introduced me to a cute stranger who happened to be walking same direction to mrt.
And i became friends with the stranger. Friends only yea but at least we're friends...not bad.
I get to do a long 30min walk to orchard mrt chatting with your old buddy.
I returned the favor and intro him to your most eligible female friend. LOL! Hope they hit it off.
I have heard quite a few stories of people who wanted to do the lord's mission and came to their country of choice with as little as $45 dollars (my currency) and they just trusted God. They never looked back or had money for return flight, about number of people they knew in that country, how to survive.
Your day might start out totally horrendous and shocking even. but if your heart and soul is set on staying faithful, meaning trusting and seeking Him, not taking things into your own hands (a.k.a. retaliating) and knowing He works for the good of those who love Him, your day might have all kinds of strangest twists for the good.
I just had a firsthand experience of how my day was slightly "interesting" at first, meaning getting accused non verbally by people on a professional basis during one of those conferences then...having headache, then not getting any responses or MOSTLY NEGATIVE responses to my smses and whatsapp messages about joining me for dinner so i ended up alone for dinner (but i think God did it so i have to spend time talking to Him) then going for a long walk to get dinner (1hour30 min walking but by choice) then waiting 20 min for a bus which i took and was still late (for choir practice).
then....
I immediately felt welcomed. by the atmosphere and people. They apologised for not emailing me....can't believe it. Offered cupcakes for someone's bday. They wanted to meet for a chat next week about joining choir. I also happened to meet one of your buddies who happen to be passing by the church (seriously, not kidding). Coincidence.
He introduced me to a cute stranger who happened to be walking same direction to mrt.
And i became friends with the stranger. Friends only yea but at least we're friends...not bad.
I get to do a long 30min walk to orchard mrt chatting with your old buddy.
I returned the favor and intro him to your most eligible female friend. LOL! Hope they hit it off.
I have heard quite a few stories of people who wanted to do the lord's mission and came to their country of choice with as little as $45 dollars (my currency) and they just trusted God. They never looked back or had money for return flight, about number of people they knew in that country, how to survive.
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
this i heed easily
7 “Hear me, you who know what is right,
you people who have taken my instruction to heart:
Do not fear the reproach of mere mortals
or be terrified by their insults.
isaiah 51
you people who have taken my instruction to heart:
Do not fear the reproach of mere mortals
or be terrified by their insults.
isaiah 51
Thursday, March 15, 2012
and the heart found its place in this world....
And there i realised along with all the confusion, frustration and division....
Where it was supposed to be.
What was supposed to happen to settle it.
The truth was out.
I was not the only one who craved the independence, freedom and space and individuality and personal friendships.
I immediately felt a gush of wind of release when i made up my own mind and took the stand.
The stand to be totally who He made me as - complete with the flaws and strengths.
Never mind the cash. As long as there is enough to cover cost.
Never mind the times i have to think on my feet, sense things around, use sixth sense, build relationships with others. It builds character and experience.
Never mind the occasional feeling of being lost or alone. I have Him (God not guy).
Never mind the extra chores to do. I have space to be there for others who need a listening ear.
Never mind the comments from others about thinking what I am doing with this freedom. I have One who watches the motivations of my heart.
Where it was supposed to be.
What was supposed to happen to settle it.
The truth was out.
I was not the only one who craved the independence, freedom and space and individuality and personal friendships.
I immediately felt a gush of wind of release when i made up my own mind and took the stand.
The stand to be totally who He made me as - complete with the flaws and strengths.
Never mind the cash. As long as there is enough to cover cost.
Never mind the times i have to think on my feet, sense things around, use sixth sense, build relationships with others. It builds character and experience.
Never mind the occasional feeling of being lost or alone. I have Him (God not guy).
Never mind the extra chores to do. I have space to be there for others who need a listening ear.
Never mind the comments from others about thinking what I am doing with this freedom. I have One who watches the motivations of my heart.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Friday, March 9, 2012
seize the interesting
If you walk down memory lane sometimes you realise the things that hit you on a personal level come back and you remember the happy moments etc with these people.......
and then...
they become a memory again. for a while.
i wish i could write a book.
maybe i will.
and then...
they become a memory again. for a while.
i wish i could write a book.
maybe i will.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
When God at first made man,
Having a glass of blessings standing by,
“Let us,” said he, “pour on him all we can.
Let the world’s riches, which dispersèd lie,
Contract into a span.”
So strength first made a way;
Then beauty flowed, then wisdom, honour, pleasure.
When almost all was out, God made a stay,
Perceiving that, alone of all his treasure,
Rest in the bottom lay.
“For if I should,” said he,
“Bestow this jewel also on my creature,
He would adore my gifts instead of me,
And rest in Nature, not the God of Nature;
So both should losers be.
“Yet let him keep the rest,
But keep them with repining restlessness;
Let him be rich and weary, that at least,
If goodness lead him not, yet weariness
May toss him to my breast.”
The Pulley
By George Herbert
“Let us,” said he, “pour on him all we can.
Let the world’s riches, which dispersèd lie,
Contract into a span.”
So strength first made a way;
Then beauty flowed, then wisdom, honour, pleasure.
When almost all was out, God made a stay,
Perceiving that, alone of all his treasure,
Rest in the bottom lay.
“For if I should,” said he,
“Bestow this jewel also on my creature,
He would adore my gifts instead of me,
And rest in Nature, not the God of Nature;
So both should losers be.
“Yet let him keep the rest,
But keep them with repining restlessness;
Let him be rich and weary, that at least,
If goodness lead him not, yet weariness
May toss him to my breast.”
The Pulley
By George Herbert
Monday, March 5, 2012
it was a crazy week worrying about love and resources
when actually there was nothing that much to worry about.
not that i am fully resourced or wealthy but there was enough to cover bills and some (savings).
But anyhow there were other things i went thru that well were personal and it was headache plus heartache. oh well...so it wasnt a great week at all. seriously. but i believe all things work out for good for those who love Him. we don't have to get even with others or be angry at all. God will work things out in His best timings. Like in the case of many of the past. who faced inprisonment, injustice, etc....they held on to their trust. In Him
not that i am fully resourced or wealthy but there was enough to cover bills and some (savings).
But anyhow there were other things i went thru that well were personal and it was headache plus heartache. oh well...so it wasnt a great week at all. seriously. but i believe all things work out for good for those who love Him. we don't have to get even with others or be angry at all. God will work things out in His best timings. Like in the case of many of the past. who faced inprisonment, injustice, etc....they held on to their trust. In Him
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
birth verse 7-7
Deuteronomy 8:7 NIV
For the LORD your God is bringing you into a good land—a land with streams and pools of water, with springs flowing in the valleys and hills;
For the LORD your God is bringing you into a good land—a land with streams and pools of water, with springs flowing in the valleys and hills;
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Friday, February 24, 2012
time is in His hands
Psalm 56:11
In God have I put my trust, I will not be afraid; What can man do unto me?
So talking about the Social pressures i face (now it has become a monthly thing and not just a bi-yearly tri-yearly thing with all these weddings).....
Yes, what can man do to me?
Talk about me? Ok........so if they want to talk, they can talk. No problem at all. (eye-roll).
Make fun of me? Ok......at least it makes people happy for the moment to laugh.
In God have I put my trust, I will not be afraid; What can man do unto me?
So talking about the Social pressures i face (now it has become a monthly thing and not just a bi-yearly tri-yearly thing with all these weddings).....
Yes, what can man do to me?
Talk about me? Ok........so if they want to talk, they can talk. No problem at all. (eye-roll).
Make fun of me? Ok......at least it makes people happy for the moment to laugh.
Monday, February 20, 2012
Sunday, February 19, 2012
double love
Yes not one love but double the love this week.
Or rather, this day.
Two of my good male buddies whom i am quite good friends with since university days got married - yes on the same day. And no, not to each other. But to TWO DIFFERENT girls.
Hahaha. These two ladies are not in our usual circle of friends but these two couples found each other....through two different ways. (One thru SDU's organised overseas tour, one through Bible school) Which got me pondering on the HOWs i should or should not meet someone. Is that really important? I wonder. I guess somehow it is a little. But more importantly is to marry good people. and make sure there's love.
And alas. this week i worked only one day in my part time job so i had a bit more time to recuperate or catch up on sleep etc. Sometimes i keep asking my heart if my motives are really pure and so good after all. The heart can be deceitful in certain circumstances or at your weak points.
Other than Vday this week, 2 weddings on the same day today and my encounter with two slightly interesting people (but not really), this week was stably steady. As for job its not too bad. Oh yah regret eating too much as the 8 course dinner was soo good. Next time, hold your weddings at Peony Jade at Keppel Club. Spacious club as its slightly older....quality food.
And oh about my love life. I will seek impartial people who are non discouraging to get advice. Not that i want them to agree with me. but at least they should be more kind and loving.
Or rather, this day.
Two of my good male buddies whom i am quite good friends with since university days got married - yes on the same day. And no, not to each other. But to TWO DIFFERENT girls.
Hahaha. These two ladies are not in our usual circle of friends but these two couples found each other....through two different ways. (One thru SDU's organised overseas tour, one through Bible school) Which got me pondering on the HOWs i should or should not meet someone. Is that really important? I wonder. I guess somehow it is a little. But more importantly is to marry good people. and make sure there's love.
And alas. this week i worked only one day in my part time job so i had a bit more time to recuperate or catch up on sleep etc. Sometimes i keep asking my heart if my motives are really pure and so good after all. The heart can be deceitful in certain circumstances or at your weak points.
Other than Vday this week, 2 weddings on the same day today and my encounter with two slightly interesting people (but not really), this week was stably steady. As for job its not too bad. Oh yah regret eating too much as the 8 course dinner was soo good. Next time, hold your weddings at Peony Jade at Keppel Club. Spacious club as its slightly older....quality food.
And oh about my love life. I will seek impartial people who are non discouraging to get advice. Not that i want them to agree with me. but at least they should be more kind and loving.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
not complicated this time round
Glad i used my brain instead of my heart this time.
Always use your brain to handle the heart....it really helps.
Proverbs 4:23
Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.
Proverbs 4:22-24 (in Context) Proverbs 4 (Whole Chapter)
Guarding your heart includes doing things that will not confuse yourself.
i met a friend who had been undergoing chemotherapy for the past few months. since september. she was very upset and frustrated about peoplea around not seeming to care.
And i was telling her, complaining changes nothing in fact it makes yourself feel worse. trust me. or try it yourself. The best method and way and solution is really simply to......
Ask for change in situations and people through God by prayer.
Genesis 25:21
Isaac prayed to the LORD on behalf of his wife, because she was childless. The LORD answered his prayer, and his wife Rebekah became pregnant.
Genesis 25:20-22
1 Chronicles 5:20
They were helped in fighting them, and God delivered the Hagrites and all their allies into their hands, because they cried out to him during the battle. He answered their prayers, because they trusted in him.
Job 42:9
So Eliphaz the Temanite, Bildad the Shuhite and Zophar the Naamathite did what the LORD told them; and the LORD accepted Job’s prayer.
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8 Love never fails.
Thats the big difference between love and euphoria, love and infatuation, love and passion....the list goes on...
Always use your brain to handle the heart....it really helps.
Proverbs 4:23
Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.
Proverbs 4:22-24 (in Context) Proverbs 4 (Whole Chapter)
Guarding your heart includes doing things that will not confuse yourself.
i met a friend who had been undergoing chemotherapy for the past few months. since september. she was very upset and frustrated about peoplea around not seeming to care.
And i was telling her, complaining changes nothing in fact it makes yourself feel worse. trust me. or try it yourself. The best method and way and solution is really simply to......
Ask for change in situations and people through God by prayer.
Genesis 25:21
Isaac prayed to the LORD on behalf of his wife, because she was childless. The LORD answered his prayer, and his wife Rebekah became pregnant.
Genesis 25:20-22
1 Chronicles 5:20
They were helped in fighting them, and God delivered the Hagrites and all their allies into their hands, because they cried out to him during the battle. He answered their prayers, because they trusted in him.
Job 42:9
So Eliphaz the Temanite, Bildad the Shuhite and Zophar the Naamathite did what the LORD told them; and the LORD accepted Job’s prayer.
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8 Love never fails.
Thats the big difference between love and euphoria, love and infatuation, love and passion....the list goes on...
Friday, February 3, 2012
the week's fatigue
the only main thing i struggled with this week, thankfully was physical tiredness. and mental tiredness on wed cos of lack of sleep night before and the intense preparation of monthly reports at work. the other things weren't so bad.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
the calling
if this is a place you only go to when others are also going then its not your calling.
if this is a thing you only do when others also do so you feel pressured to do it its not your calling.
if this is a deep conviction of your own where people tried to dissuade you but it didnt change your mind.......then IT IS your calling...
On to talking about food.....the latest each-a-cup blend aint as nice as the original one eh? i don't know what they added to it. lol.....:( i have been trying also "agantea" (which is pronounced as ah-gan-tea) and some strange brand near my area. but they have rose pearls and the quality is pretty good.
the only reason i'm writing so much is cos today was uneventful compared to sunday! i was thinking of the idea of "no plans" at all (as if that will work in life). having dinner w karlo and shan again...karlo was talking about how spontaneous is always much better than planned things. i think humans often plans so much there is not much room left for God or others to shape our course in life.....
i think that sunday evening was a little crazy.....running around that place like a kid. i felt totally small. and this was among man-made equipment. then it got me remembering again how much bigger the natural things were. the mountains in taiwan were huge and in huge stretches. was it mountain chains i learnt in geography years ago? yea and when you're driving up a mountain, it feels like that mountain is already so huge. you cant even think of walking to the next mountain. (well u can but it would take a long time). so what more about the greatness of the Being who made all these.
if this is a thing you only do when others also do so you feel pressured to do it its not your calling.
if this is a deep conviction of your own where people tried to dissuade you but it didnt change your mind.......then IT IS your calling...
On to talking about food.....the latest each-a-cup blend aint as nice as the original one eh? i don't know what they added to it. lol.....:( i have been trying also "agantea" (which is pronounced as ah-gan-tea) and some strange brand near my area. but they have rose pearls and the quality is pretty good.
the only reason i'm writing so much is cos today was uneventful compared to sunday! i was thinking of the idea of "no plans" at all (as if that will work in life). having dinner w karlo and shan again...karlo was talking about how spontaneous is always much better than planned things. i think humans often plans so much there is not much room left for God or others to shape our course in life.....
i think that sunday evening was a little crazy.....running around that place like a kid. i felt totally small. and this was among man-made equipment. then it got me remembering again how much bigger the natural things were. the mountains in taiwan were huge and in huge stretches. was it mountain chains i learnt in geography years ago? yea and when you're driving up a mountain, it feels like that mountain is already so huge. you cant even think of walking to the next mountain. (well u can but it would take a long time). so what more about the greatness of the Being who made all these.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
the rest i need for the week
Oh well...at least people still are reading....my blog. but sometimes you just think, if they wanted to read they should also come and talk to you directly, that would be so nice too.
Now i totally understand george clooney's stance in life.
It is so troublesome and annoying and roller coaster and and and...seriously? don't i have better things to do than to worry about someone like 80% of the time. i really don't want that in my life. if you don't believe me watch "the descendants" movie.
Ok on to my argument. there are both sides. if you expect the worst, sometimes you could be happier. if you expect the worst, it also could happen...so....it keeps you prepared? i had a nightmare on wed night but it was spiritual. and i feel i need to pray for this particular person but not in a bad way. my prayers are always for good trust me. but also no ulterior motives. after what happened this whole week? oh man.....what a roller coaster ride...so no way.
Now i totally understand george clooney's stance in life.
It is so troublesome and annoying and roller coaster and and and...seriously? don't i have better things to do than to worry about someone like 80% of the time. i really don't want that in my life. if you don't believe me watch "the descendants" movie.
Ok on to my argument. there are both sides. if you expect the worst, sometimes you could be happier. if you expect the worst, it also could happen...so....it keeps you prepared? i had a nightmare on wed night but it was spiritual. and i feel i need to pray for this particular person but not in a bad way. my prayers are always for good trust me. but also no ulterior motives. after what happened this whole week? oh man.....what a roller coaster ride...so no way.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
things in life
I have two schools of thought that constantly make me wonder.
First is, to have absolute or high confidence in almost everything i choose to do and set my mind to. Because if there's no belief and confidence in my own mind and heart, how can it come to fruition?
The next is this: to have absolutely low/no confidence in everything so that when something good happens you will be happier.
Which would you choose??
I would rather take the first stance than the second because
1) the bible is FULL of hope in words from God/promises
2) man and mankind cannot live without hope
3) why make yourself miserable when one door closed means other greater opportunities? its up to you to see it.
First is, to have absolute or high confidence in almost everything i choose to do and set my mind to. Because if there's no belief and confidence in my own mind and heart, how can it come to fruition?
The next is this: to have absolutely low/no confidence in everything so that when something good happens you will be happier.
Which would you choose??
I would rather take the first stance than the second because
1) the bible is FULL of hope in words from God/promises
2) man and mankind cannot live without hope
3) why make yourself miserable when one door closed means other greater opportunities? its up to you to see it.
Friday, January 20, 2012
spiritual food. yum
I like my work...lolz.
Finally eh.
Yea both part time and full time ones.
So this is good.
But the problem? Dealing with people changing their moods.
But i love God's word even better.
“[Testing of Your Faith] Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.” James 1:2-3 ESV
21 For although they knew God, they did not honor him as God or give thanks to him, but they became futile in their thinking, and their foolish hearts were darkened. 22 Claiming to be wise, they became fools, 23 and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images resembling mortal man and birds and animals and creeping things. Romans 1:21
Judges 6:10
And I said to you, ‘I am the LORD your God; you shall not fear the gods of the Amorites in whose land you dwell.’ But you have not obeyed my voice.”
Genesis 22:12
He said, “Do not lay your hand on the boy or do anything to him, for now I know that you fear God, seeing you have not withheld your son, your only son, from me.”
Ecclesiastes 3:14
I perceived that whatever God does endures forever; nothing can be added to it, nor anything taken from it. God has done it, so that people fear before him.
Hebrews 10:31
It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God.
Revelation 19:5
And from the throne came a voice saying, “Praise our God, all you his servants, you who fear him, small and great.”
Finally eh.
Yea both part time and full time ones.
So this is good.
But the problem? Dealing with people changing their moods.
But i love God's word even better.
“[Testing of Your Faith] Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.” James 1:2-3 ESV
21 For although they knew God, they did not honor him as God or give thanks to him, but they became futile in their thinking, and their foolish hearts were darkened. 22 Claiming to be wise, they became fools, 23 and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images resembling mortal man and birds and animals and creeping things. Romans 1:21
Judges 6:10
And I said to you, ‘I am the LORD your God; you shall not fear the gods of the Amorites in whose land you dwell.’ But you have not obeyed my voice.”
Genesis 22:12
He said, “Do not lay your hand on the boy or do anything to him, for now I know that you fear God, seeing you have not withheld your son, your only son, from me.”
Ecclesiastes 3:14
I perceived that whatever God does endures forever; nothing can be added to it, nor anything taken from it. God has done it, so that people fear before him.
Hebrews 10:31
It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God.
Revelation 19:5
And from the throne came a voice saying, “Praise our God, all you his servants, you who fear him, small and great.”
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
the game again
I cannot stand guys who want to pursue a girl but are rude when they are chasing her.....so what does he want? ;?
"do you not like this kind of guys because they are not attracted to you?"
"No. its because i don't even like them so i don't even bother if they like me or not."
As for life, other aspects....
I really am checking my motives on things in life.
"do you not like this kind of guys because they are not attracted to you?"
"No. its because i don't even like them so i don't even bother if they like me or not."
As for life, other aspects....
I really am checking my motives on things in life.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
out of comfort zone! yay!
Out of my distress I called on the LORD; the LORD answered me and set me free. The LORD is on my side; I will not fear. What can man do to me?” Psalm 118:5-6 ESV
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed.
Theodore Roosevelt
Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. Isa 41:10
“for in Christ Jesus you are all sons of God, through faith. For as many of you as were baptized into Christ have put on Christ. There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is no male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.” Galatians 3:26-28 ESV
13 Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us—for it is written, “Cursed is everyone who is hanged on a tree”—
twenty years from now, I'll regret what i didnt do rather than what i did. - Mark twain
George Verwer's first contact with Christianity was through his neighbor, Dorothea Clapp, who gave him the Gospel of John and also put him on her "Holy Ghost hit list". Amazing! If everyone had a Holy Ghost hit list....many more would be impacted with the truth or love of Christ...
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed.
Theodore Roosevelt
Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. Isa 41:10
“for in Christ Jesus you are all sons of God, through faith. For as many of you as were baptized into Christ have put on Christ. There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is no male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.” Galatians 3:26-28 ESV
13 Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us—for it is written, “Cursed is everyone who is hanged on a tree”—
twenty years from now, I'll regret what i didnt do rather than what i did. - Mark twain
George Verwer's first contact with Christianity was through his neighbor, Dorothea Clapp, who gave him the Gospel of John and also put him on her "Holy Ghost hit list". Amazing! If everyone had a Holy Ghost hit list....many more would be impacted with the truth or love of Christ...
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Thursday, January 5, 2012
unexpected great
The girl whom i thought didnt like me on the trip...actually organised a meet up and i was included...this is what i call...when God opens the door, no one can shut it. :) Prayers FOR people especially those who are extremely difficult can go right to the person's heart. God does intervene. AMEN!
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
love the unexpected
The place of Breakthroughs AND unexpected ONES.
The Lord seemed to be telling me over and over again through various situations and "feelings" i got not just this journey but throughout the year
"Look I see you differently from how you see yourself.
SEE and EXPERIENCE what I AM doing in YOUR LIFE ESPECIALLY this year.
Am I human? Or am I GOD?"
The Lord seemed to be telling me over and over again through various situations and "feelings" i got not just this journey but throughout the year
"Look I see you differently from how you see yourself.
SEE and EXPERIENCE what I AM doing in YOUR LIFE ESPECIALLY this year.
Am I human? Or am I GOD?"
Sunday, January 1, 2012
sabbath
Like Jesus did....we're "supposed" to rest on sundays but whoa.....was mine packed and tiring.
met three groups of people today. one christian group (another group of church friends from IBC...) and some new and old friends at vivo and lastly....evening service at orchard road....what a nice formal way to end the day with hymns and nice architecture.
I was surprised when i was greeted with a friendly greeting (duh) at the evening service. heh....and prob made friends w 2 gal pals over the weekend friendly enough to be travel kaki (probably to rome...lol)
met three groups of people today. one christian group (another group of church friends from IBC...) and some new and old friends at vivo and lastly....evening service at orchard road....what a nice formal way to end the day with hymns and nice architecture.
I was surprised when i was greeted with a friendly greeting (duh) at the evening service. heh....and prob made friends w 2 gal pals over the weekend friendly enough to be travel kaki (probably to rome...lol)
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