Friday, May 31, 2013

930am to 3.30pm: i love facebook! i found out a lot of things from it :)

5pm: First you can't force love.....now......u cant even force friendship....so nothing can be forced......then what? just....let God make things happen or.......let people come to their own realizations........or.......what?

5.30pm: After "shocking" pieces of news everywhere....lol.....i shall steady myself and seek to really seek Him...first.......and not....look....at......the......world.....still praying and seeking You for where to go and what to do someday when i have to leave this country.....out of comfort zone into.......where? don't worry i am praying about where........it's intense yet mysterious and really cool to trust You about this...again being in this office reminds me constantly of my prayer life with the one who created us.
Because God cannot take the form of a statue or carving or symbol......He is a Spirit. So reminders come but they remind me i should pray to God Himself.

Saturday, May 25, 2013

forgetting to be thankful

I just realised after a super-lack-of-sleep yesterday how lacking in thanking God for my blessings.
those things that we have without asking......those things that we don't have to go to the doctor for, those things we don't have to beg for.....the things that we don't need effort to do....like breathe.....the climate.....day and night......food.....shelter.....deep sleep....clean water.....toilets (and not open fields).....clothes....health - physical and mental.
Most importantly, hope.....to live and each day of our lives.
the will to carry on and carry out our life vision and purpose.
Thank you Lord.....thank you so much.....

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

real and imaginary

I think sometimes its our imagination that truly takes us places and truly shows the smarter side of us....the subconscious mind! harhar.
So here i am dreaming again........while at work. but i am working.....so while working i am thinking of this random idea.....here it goes:

What if what we truly asked and longed and pined for reached us, and it wasn't as what we hoped or imagined to be......or as good as we thought it would be?
And on the other hand what if the thing we were "ok with" or neutral about came to us and after we committed to it (like for instance a job) we actually REALLY love it?
I think it works that way.

However if there's something we totally cannot be with and cannot tolerate or have absolutely no passion for......reach us.....i think we will leave or find a way to.....hm.......

The verse that ties in with my current state of mind/life. teehee.

13 For you have been called to live in freedom, my brothers and sisters. But don’t use your freedom to satisfy your sinful nature. Instead, use your freedom to serve one another in love. 
Galations 5:13

Monday, May 20, 2013

here i am

but ok....i am writing 'here i am' as a title because here i am really finally here in this job of my passion to stay.......in this job i actually really like and not "i have to do this for the sake of.(money, survival, people pressure)......." so.......thank YOU (God)....

Monday, May 13, 2013

lalalala

Well....what an "exciting" and overly eventful week......quite unexpected highs and lows.....the highs were really high and the lows were ok not that bad until that point of......
I guess we know in all things God works things out for those who love Him and in His purposes. i am STILL keeping on in what i strongly believe in and hold on to. so there....i don't think anyone saying this or that to me can really shake my core beliefs that easily even if its like 10 smses in the middle of the night advising me to do this or that because they think "it's right". That is assuming....1) people don't know what is wrong or right 2) people don't have a conscience.