It's soo funny how.....

I am so humbled again and again at how God brings me thru silly situations every single time i face a trial where I feel i'm helpless, as helpless as the korean word "B***** ****" (its supposed to be a bad word hehe). You can almost hear Him speak to you, indeed it is, during the darkest and most difficult or crazy times. It has happened to me.

In the course of last last week I witnssed how just a spark of blind faith (i was closing my eyes that time) could save my life. And I saw how God wants us to keep having the heart to do the right thing. In all circumstances. first hand encounter.

Also this week.....whoaa......what a "remarkable experience" of facing my giants.....nothing scary though. just a lot of patience and quite a bit of work. But He speaks a whole lot during trials trust me. He does.

striking the balance

sometimes its hard knowing what and where to strike a balance with justice and compassion, with impartiality and popularity, with judging oneself and trying not to judge others with the same standards we judge ourselves.

dense mind, rich food, change, perthing

every time i step into a new country or new group of people aka community, my mindsets and perceptions always change a little after interacting with them. most of the time i reailse there are so many things i don't or didn't know, new things to learn, new values to learn which are good and new ways of thinking and lifestyle etc....being at my cousin's wedding now, i've had the great chance of meeting not just her troupe but her groom's troupe. then i realised living overseas is so different from living back home...duhh. but yah. its really quite a happening place. but i would say that there are different sets of skills n qualities the individual can grow in in every place.

some of the stuff are: i wonder how its like being on the road for miles and miles of smooth driving every day or taking ages to reach the next neighbouhood on foot.
do people always have sleepovers or what westerners call "slumber parties" every week or 2 at friends' homes? are beef steaks and salad the norm for a meal? =P there are many more things i'd like to say but oh well.....heh. =P

thinking

i have nothing much to say on my blog these days. i never faced the problem of writer's block online.....because its not a test or exam....the only thing i face is, nothing to say....but a whole lot going on in my head.

I really am worried about my old campus (university) and the stuff going on there......loneliness in hostels, suicides, stress or anger issues, welfare of foreign students.....there's so much to pray for. so much to give, reach out to. sometimes people just need a smile or a hi or a helping hand. its the drop in the bucket (where everyone gives) that can tip the scales towards the positive. a person in depression can be saved and safe. i just wish there was something i could do.

the working world can be gross BUT....

I have to be so explicit to explain to juniors or minors or whatever younger people are called......that this is the truth. let me tell u, if anyone who has been working 6 months or more tell us their job and company has no corrupted people and every one is honest and kind and good, they are lying. arghhhhh!!! and even if they are good and nice to u, they may not be nice to others or honest. welcome to the real world.

THE question is: Do we stop loving or doing whats right, even when things/people are bad?

i'm still desperately trying to figure out my purpose no matter how small, here. every person lives to a max of limited years, even the bible says so. how can we make each year, each month count? if i look back in 2010 at my calendar for 2009, am i able to say, whoa it was a good year?