the lord hath been good to me. i really wanna thank Him again for this time, the new job. yes i can hear you say "what, again?!" but as far as i'm concerned i am just really thankful because i thought all the doors were closed on me already (job wise). sending out 300 over applications over 2 weeks. which averages 30 per day. i really have to not be too sensitive about people and things already and any more. like the saying in my family goes "People's mouths can say whatever they want."
So...here we are and i think my choices are pretty good after getting recommendations here and there. i love recommendations from acquaintances and friends. there is always some truth in good recommendations. and why would people lie about good things? bad ones i usually just brush aside or slide down my back or completely ignore (i learnt how to) unless i personally experienced it and the person's bad-thing-said myself firsthand.
Saturday, December 6, 2014
Wednesday, December 3, 2014
in every successful career, relationship, friendship....there will be tough or rough times.
i started my day today really crappily and i was feeling fat haha because i overate after a small run yesterday. so feeling "guilty" today, i walked 2 hours plus of chinese garden. sweated mostly. didnt feel like any muscle built or any fat gone. but i think since it was purely metabolic...so well.
but well though things can get crappy anywhere you are, it doesnt have to remain like that and so....it got better later! surprisingly. a good time of playing in a lovely cafe or eatery where they have so many types of games. like shelves of them. different people - older and younger. even had one whole table of foreigners.
yea hey and i stop talking so fast these days unlike during my recent trip where i was talking so much. which is also good. :) may have seriously hunt for a job for the sake of future holidays.
i started my day today really crappily and i was feeling fat haha because i overate after a small run yesterday. so feeling "guilty" today, i walked 2 hours plus of chinese garden. sweated mostly. didnt feel like any muscle built or any fat gone. but i think since it was purely metabolic...so well.
but well though things can get crappy anywhere you are, it doesnt have to remain like that and so....it got better later! surprisingly. a good time of playing in a lovely cafe or eatery where they have so many types of games. like shelves of them. different people - older and younger. even had one whole table of foreigners.
yea hey and i stop talking so fast these days unlike during my recent trip where i was talking so much. which is also good. :) may have seriously hunt for a job for the sake of future holidays.
Wednesday, November 26, 2014
i guess i myself am not as expressive as i thought i should be or would be. words don't come so easily (lol like in the song) sometimes and even like emotions - good or bad or both can come out like later haha...oops.
but that's exactly what we call human or what humans do. sometimes we just forget to remember (The irony) what we have....and forget the positive changes we have compared to last time. so there, first i wanna thank the lord for giving me the useful site www.meetup.com though you really meet every one for the first time almost every time. after a while those meetups you go to regularly...the people eventually also become your acquaintance then friends.
i thank God for dreams - strange or those of the past or future or even when i see myself in other countries and i wonder where i am. and in different settings - sometimes in a cottage, sometimes in a huge house or a mall, sometimes at the seaside, or at a village or forest or on some quest or with various types of ppl or alone. so there's the sense of deja vu at times.
though i believe in ultimately the predestination of where God wants me and others to be, we still have to make choices most of the time and along the way.
i thank Him for concerned students / children who think simple, are childlike and can spot things that adults can't spot and help me solve mysteries like my very "private" life.
haiz that's the thing about the human curious mind. we keep digging for facts and info till we solve mysteries, rite? or maybe its just me with mysteries to solve.
but that's exactly what we call human or what humans do. sometimes we just forget to remember (The irony) what we have....and forget the positive changes we have compared to last time. so there, first i wanna thank the lord for giving me the useful site www.meetup.com though you really meet every one for the first time almost every time. after a while those meetups you go to regularly...the people eventually also become your acquaintance then friends.
i thank God for dreams - strange or those of the past or future or even when i see myself in other countries and i wonder where i am. and in different settings - sometimes in a cottage, sometimes in a huge house or a mall, sometimes at the seaside, or at a village or forest or on some quest or with various types of ppl or alone. so there's the sense of deja vu at times.
though i believe in ultimately the predestination of where God wants me and others to be, we still have to make choices most of the time and along the way.
i thank Him for concerned students / children who think simple, are childlike and can spot things that adults can't spot and help me solve mysteries like my very "private" life.
haiz that's the thing about the human curious mind. we keep digging for facts and info till we solve mysteries, rite? or maybe its just me with mysteries to solve.
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
a trip to bkk
I am thankful for each chapter of life the Lord gives me or doesnt give me.
Thank God for the 10 round run where i only warmed up after 4 and half rounds.
Focusing on good things...oh i had so much fun going Bkk with my friend "Jason". lol. It's a staged name hah. his real name is Meng something (do u believe it?). we talked more than we looked at sights and scenery though. haha. which is very good for building relationships. I mean, knowing a person more and seeing if he gets my wavelength / frequency or flow of thought is no easy feat especially when i am on the move AND in a new place totally disoriented. Imagine coming to a new country you haven't done much research on and feeling lost and a bit scared and there's this guy next to you talking at 70wpm (like my typing speed) or more. and mostly gibberish. ok no lah, he was good at reading maps. very good at it. so he verbalises how he reads a map. heheh. little arguments some of the time were more like bickering between siblings which was very amusing to myself but i didnt reveal it. Now the main thing is to make him tell me who he is. without stage name etc and fake voice (or maybe it's real and his voice is originally like that). hopefully, the pimples are fake. *crosses fingers*
I like that place a lot because mainly it's huge. in terms of land area. i love the river where the transport by a big boat down chao phrya river is so much cheaper than taking tuk tuk or train or taxi.
Though none go with me i still will follow that song, who can forget? however i think that applies to following God more than going to a place alone.
As for my jobs situation again. multiple closed doors can also really be a blessing in disguise. God doesn't close doors when you pray like mad and didn't do bad things / good. there's something called "A better plan" when you really pray and there are closed doors. so look out for that "better plan" God has.
Thank God for the 10 round run where i only warmed up after 4 and half rounds.
Focusing on good things...oh i had so much fun going Bkk with my friend "Jason". lol. It's a staged name hah. his real name is Meng something (do u believe it?). we talked more than we looked at sights and scenery though. haha. which is very good for building relationships. I mean, knowing a person more and seeing if he gets my wavelength / frequency or flow of thought is no easy feat especially when i am on the move AND in a new place totally disoriented. Imagine coming to a new country you haven't done much research on and feeling lost and a bit scared and there's this guy next to you talking at 70wpm (like my typing speed) or more. and mostly gibberish. ok no lah, he was good at reading maps. very good at it. so he verbalises how he reads a map. heheh. little arguments some of the time were more like bickering between siblings which was very amusing to myself but i didnt reveal it. Now the main thing is to make him tell me who he is. without stage name etc and fake voice (or maybe it's real and his voice is originally like that). hopefully, the pimples are fake. *crosses fingers*
I like that place a lot because mainly it's huge. in terms of land area. i love the river where the transport by a big boat down chao phrya river is so much cheaper than taking tuk tuk or train or taxi.
Though none go with me i still will follow that song, who can forget? however i think that applies to following God more than going to a place alone.
As for my jobs situation again. multiple closed doors can also really be a blessing in disguise. God doesn't close doors when you pray like mad and didn't do bad things / good. there's something called "A better plan" when you really pray and there are closed doors. so look out for that "better plan" God has.
Monday, November 3, 2014
imputation
[im-pyoot]
verb (used with object), imputed, imputing.
3.
Law. to ascribe to or charge (a person) with an act or quality because of the conduct of another over whom one has control or for whose acts or conduct one is responsible.
That's what He did for us.
Yesu, Isaa, Jesus himself.
Monday, September 29, 2014
books that change your life
have you ever wondered how something simple could just turn your life a hundred and eighty degrees around? For me that would be humor and a funny game like cards against humanity meant to spoof or put in funny light everything that's not supposed to be taken so seriously in life. or a role playing game like citadels.
and this reminds me of great impactful books that authors of old have written, that change people's ways of seeing things, the lens which we view our world. great sayings and quotations too that make one think. sardonic humor is my favourite where troublesome/fearful things that are only psuedo-fears are spoofed up or written in a way, meant to poke fun at what should not be our focuses in life.
simple catchy or witty things that make life simpler to understand as well and not so complicated. which reminds me of a verse i used to see a lot during teenager years:
And among my favourite authors is C.S. Lewis, who wrote the great Screwtape letters. :)
and this reminds me of great impactful books that authors of old have written, that change people's ways of seeing things, the lens which we view our world. great sayings and quotations too that make one think. sardonic humor is my favourite where troublesome/fearful things that are only psuedo-fears are spoofed up or written in a way, meant to poke fun at what should not be our focuses in life.
simple catchy or witty things that make life simpler to understand as well and not so complicated. which reminds me of a verse i used to see a lot during teenager years:
Philippians 4:8
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.And among my favourite authors is C.S. Lewis, who wrote the great Screwtape letters. :)
Wednesday, September 10, 2014
What an "adventurous" time i had today around and about town. oh well at least now when I'm home and doing my usual glances at news, things seems to resolve and fit nicely into something called, a resolution or a solution or a solving of mysteries and problems. Sometimes God allows mysteries to happen and tells you the answers or solutions to them soon, and sometimes, much later.
So here I am, really relieved and had a long debate on whatsapp and sometimes with myself. Each morning i wake i thank the Lord for his goodness. And yes, i think to myself, What a wonderful world. (just like the song).
And i am between being humble and accepting potential 'mates' easily and also, not simply settling. so sometimes you just have to be a bit of both or half-half, accepting the right person but also making sure i'm able to be long term with the person.
AND of course, hearing things directly from the person and not through third party even though it's a well meaning acquaintance or even, a friend. it could be misconstrued, when passing through the telephone wire, like in the game "Pass the message" where kids had to pass the message down to several people before it reached the last person who could say something totally off, or totally funny. lol, those were the days.
So here I am, really relieved and had a long debate on whatsapp and sometimes with myself. Each morning i wake i thank the Lord for his goodness. And yes, i think to myself, What a wonderful world. (just like the song).
And i am between being humble and accepting potential 'mates' easily and also, not simply settling. so sometimes you just have to be a bit of both or half-half, accepting the right person but also making sure i'm able to be long term with the person.
AND of course, hearing things directly from the person and not through third party even though it's a well meaning acquaintance or even, a friend. it could be misconstrued, when passing through the telephone wire, like in the game "Pass the message" where kids had to pass the message down to several people before it reached the last person who could say something totally off, or totally funny. lol, those were the days.
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
a lot of debates come from opposites, or are they from opposites?
for instance
One big example from a friend who asked me this in jc. this question continues to plague me actually haha. because it is a deep question - the debate of choice or no choice - which is better for you personally? hm, both work for me, but i slightly prefer to have choice, yet i am afraid to make the wrong choice.
i also learnt actually the slower way, that sometimes when an advice or comment is made, it may not be directed at me and may be to everyone, or a group of people, or the person's own strong beliefs or some past experience of the person speaking, or a projection of their fears, or simply, to teach / guide everyone. so, you cannot take things to heart at times or too personal.
just the same with the word "humble". yes it may represent being non-boastful etc, but may not always mean not boasting or pretending to be lousy at something. it could actually mean quick to apologize, or quick to accept others (even at lover level), or quick to change. its about again, matters of ...the heart (not romance but used here, intentions and purpose)
for instance
One big example from a friend who asked me this in jc. this question continues to plague me actually haha. because it is a deep question - the debate of choice or no choice - which is better for you personally? hm, both work for me, but i slightly prefer to have choice, yet i am afraid to make the wrong choice.
i also learnt actually the slower way, that sometimes when an advice or comment is made, it may not be directed at me and may be to everyone, or a group of people, or the person's own strong beliefs or some past experience of the person speaking, or a projection of their fears, or simply, to teach / guide everyone. so, you cannot take things to heart at times or too personal.
just the same with the word "humble". yes it may represent being non-boastful etc, but may not always mean not boasting or pretending to be lousy at something. it could actually mean quick to apologize, or quick to accept others (even at lover level), or quick to change. its about again, matters of ...the heart (not romance but used here, intentions and purpose)
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
how to tell if you're a hopeless romantic who met someone who reminds you of...*Mr.
1) you talk to yourself sometimes (but actually you're imagining talking to your other...)
2) you watched 50 first dates or other romantic shows more than 3 times, and probably will watch more soon
3) bad things throughout the week that happen seem less bad
4) you smile a strange half-smile to yourself at times and have to keep coming up with excuses about it / (however, this also occurs with mental people)
5) Work and life has slightly more purpose
But seriously, that was written tongue in cheek so i sometimes tell myself, well......good vibes are good vibes but should not supercede your more or most important priorities in life. though they really can sweep people off their feet (literally and figuratively) - still trying to decipher the difference between literal and figurative.
1) you talk to yourself sometimes (but actually you're imagining talking to your other...)
2) you watched 50 first dates or other romantic shows more than 3 times, and probably will watch more soon
3) bad things throughout the week that happen seem less bad
4) you smile a strange half-smile to yourself at times and have to keep coming up with excuses about it / (however, this also occurs with mental people)
5) Work and life has slightly more purpose
But seriously, that was written tongue in cheek so i sometimes tell myself, well......good vibes are good vibes but should not supercede your more or most important priorities in life. though they really can sweep people off their feet (literally and figuratively) - still trying to decipher the difference between literal and figurative.
Saturday, August 16, 2014
Saturday, August 2, 2014
Thursday, July 24, 2014
random...blessings
You don't need special women's insurance:
Genesis 49
25 because of your father’s God, who helps you,
because of the Almighty, who blesses you
with blessings of the skies above,
blessings of the deep springs below,
blessings of the breast and womb.
For choosing a brand of jeans:
At that time the Lord set apart the tribe of Levi to carry the ark of the covenant of the Lord, to stand before the Lord to minister and to pronounce blessings in his name, as they still do today.
Having an obedient attidude at least because you want blessing, if not
[ Blessings for Obedience ] If you fully obey the Lord your God and carefully follow all his commands I give you today, the Lord your God will set you high above all the nations on earth.
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
for every one a different type of smartness
mine is for sure not technical subjects. that's why i chose this role....customer service though its hearing complains and bad stuff whole day. hah hah.
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
things i learnt in the LAST decade
My oh my...how ten years have passed just like that! but it wasn't that short either if u think of it. my 20-22 those three years seemed to drag forever though i was having fun in university. then came the 24-27 years old which seemed to be thinking of a big solution to my problems.
then came the exploring years which i am still at....which is probably the most exciting time now as well for me. went to england and hanoi alone. and some other places.
Things i learnt:
1) your weight will fluctuate whether you go for camps and indulge in 3 meal buffets or if you eat just simple 3 meals daily. don't get sad bcos of some weight gain (might even help in appearance...)
2) sleep - i can do with 5.5 hours MINimum daily. even if you sleep 1-2 hours you can survive the next day.but that's it, survive is the bare minimum u can do.
3) you only worry or feel disoriented about visiting in a new country the first 2 days. after that you will be happy.
4) take advice, but not the whole thing....depends.....
5) i cannot survive well in a small company unless they are all my old friends who i know for quite a few years. / manage to click well.
6) people can say things about you or even accuse you wrongly but you know yourself what the truth is, so don't need to get insulted or worse, angry, because when truth comes out by itself, the conviction lasts a longer time
then came the exploring years which i am still at....which is probably the most exciting time now as well for me. went to england and hanoi alone. and some other places.
Things i learnt:
1) your weight will fluctuate whether you go for camps and indulge in 3 meal buffets or if you eat just simple 3 meals daily. don't get sad bcos of some weight gain (might even help in appearance...)
2) sleep - i can do with 5.5 hours MINimum daily. even if you sleep 1-2 hours you can survive the next day.but that's it, survive is the bare minimum u can do.
3) you only worry or feel disoriented about visiting in a new country the first 2 days. after that you will be happy.
4) take advice, but not the whole thing....depends.....
5) i cannot survive well in a small company unless they are all my old friends who i know for quite a few years. / manage to click well.
6) people can say things about you or even accuse you wrongly but you know yourself what the truth is, so don't need to get insulted or worse, angry, because when truth comes out by itself, the conviction lasts a longer time
Monday, May 5, 2014
i guess last week though pretty up and down, was much better than the week before and it reached a good "Mothers day" celebration yest with extended relatives.
but the usual advice given by some older adults does work: follow your heart. small and big choices. unless in times where there's no choice. but i am not sure if insisting on the choice u make despite some closed doors work. it may not actually work. from what i see from people and my own past experience.....so good to again, leave it to....God.
but the usual advice given by some older adults does work: follow your heart. small and big choices. unless in times where there's no choice. but i am not sure if insisting on the choice u make despite some closed doors work. it may not actually work. from what i see from people and my own past experience.....so good to again, leave it to....God.
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
the shocking adventure
i actually went on some date yesterday super fast and spontaeneous. met on some website haha. after the waste of time which was about 1 hour of talking nothing nice to each other, in other words a calm but hostile exchange. whoa. so after this i decided to trust God more instead of going on dates like these. then again.....u have to try. just sometimes. just to tell your kids /grandkids in future about your life.
Today verses in the bible calmed me down.i think my first week at work went ok. i was more motivated than in the previous job which i practically hopped into. but i survived my first day at work and then the first week at work. which is totally great. thanks to Him of course. so yea........wondering how much advice i should take from people and how to filter them most of the time.
Today verses in the bible calmed me down.i think my first week at work went ok. i was more motivated than in the previous job which i practically hopped into. but i survived my first day at work and then the first week at work. which is totally great. thanks to Him of course. so yea........wondering how much advice i should take from people and how to filter them most of the time.
Thursday, April 10, 2014
sometimes....the best things in life....i realised through experience and not hearsay, are simply.......
when you take away that phone and the camera and the wallet and the food/drinks and just savor the experience and surroundings and people that you have...without the food and drinks to distract you. just the simple conversation and the smiles and warmth and laughter and topics of chatter....and the atmosphere....and the friendships around. very simply that. :) just felt that kinda warmth earlier. a good series of events indeed.
when you take away that phone and the camera and the wallet and the food/drinks and just savor the experience and surroundings and people that you have...without the food and drinks to distract you. just the simple conversation and the smiles and warmth and laughter and topics of chatter....and the atmosphere....and the friendships around. very simply that. :) just felt that kinda warmth earlier. a good series of events indeed.
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
humour/humor in an advert i saw today
adverts at the MRT station today caught my eye. about animals we eat or love.....oh well.
but this time i have decided about that strange guy who seems to represent like 4-5 people (or more).
if it's a stupid puzzle or lame or non urgent......i will not solve it. haw haw. i will just continue to play along. or try to....weakly.
i realise that the whole neighbourhood and community, consisting of strangers you never met in person, can know about your whole entire history since you were in primary school or kindergarten (all the silliest events) and be actually interested in it....and yet not know you in person. of course this would also help remind me of myself and all my strangest habits and happenings or sightings in years to come. ;)
thank God for such a thing called humor that has existed since well......bible times where donkeys could speak and mules were always used to represent stubborn people....horses to represent conquests and battles, sheep and goats to illustrate difference in attitudes of people, and whales in jonah's case to accomplish his purpose as well. and......the funniest people in strangest most awkward situations used for his purposes too.
but this time i have decided about that strange guy who seems to represent like 4-5 people (or more).
if it's a stupid puzzle or lame or non urgent......i will not solve it. haw haw. i will just continue to play along. or try to....weakly.
i realise that the whole neighbourhood and community, consisting of strangers you never met in person, can know about your whole entire history since you were in primary school or kindergarten (all the silliest events) and be actually interested in it....and yet not know you in person. of course this would also help remind me of myself and all my strangest habits and happenings or sightings in years to come. ;)
thank God for such a thing called humor that has existed since well......bible times where donkeys could speak and mules were always used to represent stubborn people....horses to represent conquests and battles, sheep and goats to illustrate difference in attitudes of people, and whales in jonah's case to accomplish his purpose as well. and......the funniest people in strangest most awkward situations used for his purposes too.
Friday, April 4, 2014
watching noah's ark
today....i was slightly engaged in the whole reality of it. that's the word........the reality of it. and of course, its history. i think visiting cambodia recently just made me so much more aware of how deep things can go and are linked. though we shouldn't always read too much into things, we should know things are linked.....take for instance, if i do this, this will happen. etc.....so that's why i don't agree with a job that says "don't think at all" because to me that would be like......"then do things or act out when told to, without knowing ever, why".....
Thursday, March 20, 2014
the actual reality
the latest update about myself is there is this person who keeps talking to me on the whatsapp recently. strange though.
thank God there is foreign talent. around. hehe.
but i think there's a great treasure in going through difficult or tough parts of life. for without them, things will be too smooth and.......too simple. and this is never the case.
14 But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed. “Do not fear their threats; do not be frightened.” 15 But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord.
........17 For it is better, if it is God’s will, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil. 18 For Christ also suffered once for sins, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive in the Spirit.
19 After being made alive, he went and made proclamation to the imprisoned spirits— 20 to those who were disobedient long ago when God waited patiently in the days of Noah while the ark was being built. In it only a few people, eight in all, were saved through water,
1 Peter 3
Very encouraged on sunday when my church mate told me that he was sure i would be happy going myself overseas. :) so again....not going to waste my holidays! :)
thank God there is foreign talent. around. hehe.
but i think there's a great treasure in going through difficult or tough parts of life. for without them, things will be too smooth and.......too simple. and this is never the case.
14 But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed. “Do not fear their threats; do not be frightened.” 15 But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord.
........17 For it is better, if it is God’s will, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil. 18 For Christ also suffered once for sins, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive in the Spirit.
19 After being made alive, he went and made proclamation to the imprisoned spirits— 20 to those who were disobedient long ago when God waited patiently in the days of Noah while the ark was being built. In it only a few people, eight in all, were saved through water,
1 Peter 3
Very encouraged on sunday when my church mate told me that he was sure i would be happy going myself overseas. :) so again....not going to waste my holidays! :)
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
after a while
i realised for this season i have watched almost every show in theatres that's showing. *gasp*
Monday, March 17, 2014
when i finally took leave....
to visit my ancient roots in chinatown....haha. ok lah my greatgrandparents were from china. both sets of them. fujian and teochew (guangzhou).but more like receeing the tour agencies for good deal. and the only ones that made sense was batam this week and thailand next week.
and / but it only rained after i decided to forgive people.....
and / but it only rained after i decided to forgive people.....
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
i just thank God...
for every day i wake up to a new 24 hours ahead of me. time here on earth is precious.
something too good to waste.
"Teach us to number our days that we may gain a heart of wisdom." Psalms 90:12
still living under the pressure...of supposedly getting married by last year (30 yrs old) as what the average age here to hitch is now....but still trying to escape that pressure. like seriously because i refuse to do it "just because" it's the age to. do it because there is love and also when i am really sure of the person, open doors closed doors, etc.
Understand, therefore, that the Lord your God is indeed God. He is the faithful God who keeps his covenant for a thousand generations and lavishes his unfailing love on those who love him and obey his commands.
Guess its now probably time to pray for rain here....
something too good to waste.
"Teach us to number our days that we may gain a heart of wisdom." Psalms 90:12
still living under the pressure...of supposedly getting married by last year (30 yrs old) as what the average age here to hitch is now....but still trying to escape that pressure. like seriously because i refuse to do it "just because" it's the age to. do it because there is love and also when i am really sure of the person, open doors closed doors, etc.
Understand, therefore, that the Lord your God is indeed God. He is the faithful God who keeps his covenant for a thousand generations and lavishes his unfailing love on those who love him and obey his commands.
Guess its now probably time to pray for rain here....
Thursday, March 6, 2014
search for that...
blessing. In our job. if it's that person you see at the lift everyday who needs help, or that aunty who cleans the toilet that you want to greet or smile at, or that foreign talent u want to get to know about in terms of culture, just take that one small thing and really focus on it and give is 110%. :)
Monday, March 3, 2014
lighthearted post for the week
after all that has happened. the craziness of it all or more like psychoness of this half a year....
well i guess with every storm or difficult time there will be a rainbow? there's so much hype about seasons of life in temperate countries but for tropical regions, it is just rain, clouds and storms. so that cometh with.......rainbows. not all the time, sometimes.
I have given up being curious or kaypoh. why....because if i snoop around etc or stalk people on facebook, they also stalk me? i think so.......or maybe its the guilt of stalking others online haha. not that i really do...i just read their latest "updates" of of course, people i am interested to know about. not just anybody. :)
I would say the weekends that i plan a lot, i don't get so much done but those weeks I have a slight plan or sketchy plan, things happen more "happeningly" in a good sense.
the most funny thing that happened to me on last weekend was this: i will never believe this. i didnt check the time of a wedding i was supposed to go to properly and showed up 3 hours after it finished. the venue was right though. so.......i actually........laughed at myself. seriously. like the whole stretch of walking away from the hotel venue, i was smiling at myself. it was in a way good but sad because i didnt meet some people. but good because i wouldn't have to meet them too. hah. partly because of the pressure like "oh when's your turn?" "are you next?".......but yes i have decided.......not to stalk people and news online. ever again. :) but then again......
well i guess with every storm or difficult time there will be a rainbow? there's so much hype about seasons of life in temperate countries but for tropical regions, it is just rain, clouds and storms. so that cometh with.......rainbows. not all the time, sometimes.
I have given up being curious or kaypoh. why....because if i snoop around etc or stalk people on facebook, they also stalk me? i think so.......or maybe its the guilt of stalking others online haha. not that i really do...i just read their latest "updates" of of course, people i am interested to know about. not just anybody. :)
I would say the weekends that i plan a lot, i don't get so much done but those weeks I have a slight plan or sketchy plan, things happen more "happeningly" in a good sense.
the most funny thing that happened to me on last weekend was this: i will never believe this. i didnt check the time of a wedding i was supposed to go to properly and showed up 3 hours after it finished. the venue was right though. so.......i actually........laughed at myself. seriously. like the whole stretch of walking away from the hotel venue, i was smiling at myself. it was in a way good but sad because i didnt meet some people. but good because i wouldn't have to meet them too. hah. partly because of the pressure like "oh when's your turn?" "are you next?".......but yes i have decided.......not to stalk people and news online. ever again. :) but then again......
Monday, February 24, 2014
living in the moment
the only space and time we have is the now. So don't live too much for the next year though that is important too. sometimes you may never get your opportunity again. thats what i learnt in junior college...the only fun part about it....
Monday, February 17, 2014
list of things be thankful for
1) getting to watch 5 movies last month
2) going cambodia for 5 day short break
3) interesting meet up groups discovered
4) fun and interesting people in meetup groups (some)
5) exploring moving out again to various locations (fun)
6) facing and solving a problem quite serious
7) still having a decision to make about work / job (i could have no choice)
8) forced to learn new engineering skills on the job (its called "no choice")
2) going cambodia for 5 day short break
3) interesting meet up groups discovered
4) fun and interesting people in meetup groups (some)
5) exploring moving out again to various locations (fun)
6) facing and solving a problem quite serious
7) still having a decision to make about work / job (i could have no choice)
8) forced to learn new engineering skills on the job (its called "no choice")
Monday, February 10, 2014
i forgot about writing for a while
till now. am still missing my short getaway. so difficult to feel un-claustrophobic....
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Monday, January 20, 2014
nothing too bad
sometimes when your self esteem is low and because of hormonal shifts and changes, women or girls tend to feel bad and lousy about themselves, and they don't know why, don't realise why, that it's because of their chemical / hormonal changes (this is actually a fact) so.....every single slight thing can seem like a big hoo-ha to you......and if you get others' perspectives and opinions.......you really think hey its not too bad actually. yes there is a problem but its not overwhelming. :) thankful for calm, rational, friends. :)
Friday, January 17, 2014
dear God
in times like these when i am so bored yet so stuck......in strange situation......and indecision
my brain and hands can only but talk and distract myself thru this: reminiscing about the guy i liked so much during my one month trip to uk.
nope he wasn't from england but close by. i guess it was a time i noticed him when i was at ease, at a point when i was fully making my own cchoices and being my own person.....not weighed with slight emotional baggage. i was in a group of about 40 of us......then each time i looked across or nearby the group i would notice his long......stare and eye contact of me. it was simply......warm and amazing. yet he never really came up to talk to me despite all that eye contact which was strange. three other girls knew about it.......hm........
my brain and hands can only but talk and distract myself thru this: reminiscing about the guy i liked so much during my one month trip to uk.
nope he wasn't from england but close by. i guess it was a time i noticed him when i was at ease, at a point when i was fully making my own cchoices and being my own person.....not weighed with slight emotional baggage. i was in a group of about 40 of us......then each time i looked across or nearby the group i would notice his long......stare and eye contact of me. it was simply......warm and amazing. yet he never really came up to talk to me despite all that eye contact which was strange. three other girls knew about it.......hm........
Thursday, January 9, 2014
"Future" plans
When a friend asks me my plans for this year........i realised its THIS year. no more shifting to "i will get this done 'next' year in 2014". still sorting out travel plans.......serving plans in terms of what i can give back to God.....and work plans.
as for dealing with issues and people.......i did some strange personality assessment at the 3 hour long interview i wrote about in previous post. and apparently there was a blind spot revealed about myself. which is........i tend to fear losing social acceptance.
so its time to focus on other aspects like........work and career, doing good, social work.......giving back to community. at least for 2014. travel with a purpose - that of giving back. that of seeing places and areas where there is room for other giving back. not just for exploration.
as for dealing with issues and people.......i did some strange personality assessment at the 3 hour long interview i wrote about in previous post. and apparently there was a blind spot revealed about myself. which is........i tend to fear losing social acceptance.
so its time to focus on other aspects like........work and career, doing good, social work.......giving back to community. at least for 2014. travel with a purpose - that of giving back. that of seeing places and areas where there is room for other giving back. not just for exploration.
Saturday, January 4, 2014
where is your remote control
i duno how but i managed to get a counseling session out of an interview i went to yesterday instead of an interview itself. total time was 3 hours.
I guess that's closer to what's a real interview. you really need to test when the candidate is angry - how she he reacts, when they are tense, when they are. i managed to say out my problem that was annoying me the whole entire year.......or at least......since Feb/March 2013...... and they - the interviewers helped me with it. can u imagine, of course they coming from a more mature perspective who has been thru life and with the intention of helping others succeed better in their personal lives.......and to counsel and restore......those are the ones whom i wanna spend more time with. :)
As for people that are just indifferent to others or worse, mean to others......letting personal motives or love interest supercede being nice to others here are the verses.....
Exodus. 23
2 “Do not follow the crowd in doing wrong. When you give testimony in a
lawsuit, do not pervert justice by siding with the crowd, 3 and do not
show favoritism to a poor person in a lawsuit.
...
6 “Do not deny justice to your poor people in their lawsuits. 7 Have nothing to do with a false charge and do not put an innocent or honest person to death, for I will not acquit the guilty.
I guess that's closer to what's a real interview. you really need to test when the candidate is angry - how she he reacts, when they are tense, when they are. i managed to say out my problem that was annoying me the whole entire year.......or at least......since Feb/March 2013...... and they - the interviewers helped me with it. can u imagine, of course they coming from a more mature perspective who has been thru life and with the intention of helping others succeed better in their personal lives.......and to counsel and restore......those are the ones whom i wanna spend more time with. :)
As for people that are just indifferent to others or worse, mean to others......letting personal motives or love interest supercede being nice to others here are the verses.....Exodus. 23
2 “Do not follow the crowd in doing wrong. When you give testimony in a
lawsuit, do not pervert justice by siding with the crowd, 3 and do not
show favoritism to a poor person in a lawsuit....
6 “Do not deny justice to your poor people in their lawsuits. 7 Have nothing to do with a false charge and do not put an innocent or honest person to death, for I will not acquit the guilty.
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