i had a dream yesterday. of him. so it doesnt mean anything rite?

what makes a story

again......what would a story or a book be, without a problem?

nothing too bad

sometimes when your self esteem is low and because of hormonal shifts and changes, women or girls tend to feel bad and lousy about themselves, and they don't know why, don't realise why, that it's because of their chemical / hormonal changes (this is actually a fact) so.....every single slight thing can seem like a big hoo-ha to you......and if you get others' perspectives and opinions.......you really think hey its not too bad actually. yes there is a problem but its not overwhelming. :) thankful for calm, rational, friends. :)

dear God

in times like these when i am so bored yet so stuck......in strange situation......and indecision
my brain and hands can only but talk and distract myself  thru this: reminiscing about the guy i liked so much during my one month trip to uk.

nope he wasn't from england but close by. i guess it was a time i noticed him when i was at ease, at a point when i was fully making my own cchoices and being my own person.....not weighed with slight emotional baggage. i was in a group of about 40 of us......then each time i looked across or nearby the group i would notice his long......stare and eye contact of me. it was simply......warm and amazing. yet he never really came up to talk to me despite all that eye contact which was strange. three other girls knew about it.......hm........

"Future" plans

When a friend asks me my plans for this year........i realised its THIS year. no more shifting to "i will get this done 'next' year in 2014". still sorting out travel plans.......serving plans in terms of what i can give back to God.....and work plans.

as for dealing with issues and people.......i did some strange personality assessment at the 3 hour long interview i wrote about in previous post. and apparently there was a blind spot revealed about myself. which is........i tend to fear losing social acceptance.

so its time to focus on other aspects like........work and career, doing good, social work.......giving back to community. at least for 2014. travel with a purpose - that of giving back. that of seeing places and areas where there is room for other giving back. not just for exploration. 

where is your remote control

i duno how but i managed to get a counseling session out of an interview i went to yesterday instead of an interview itself. total time was 3 hours.

I guess that's closer to what's a real interview. you really need to test when the candidate is angry - how she he reacts, when they are tense, when they are. i managed to say out my problem that was annoying me the whole entire year.......or at least......since Feb/March 2013...... and they - the interviewers helped me with it. can u imagine, of course they coming from a more mature perspective who has been thru life and with the intention of helping others succeed better in their personal lives.......and to counsel and restore......those are the ones whom i wanna spend more time with. :)

As for people that are just indifferent to others or worse, mean to others......letting personal motives or love interest supercede being nice to others here are the verses.....

Exodus. 23
2 “Do not follow the crowd in doing wrong. When you give testimony in a lawsuit, do not pervert justice by siding with the crowd, 3 and do not show favoritism to a poor person in a lawsuit.
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6 “Do not deny justice to your poor people in their lawsuits. 7 Have nothing to do with a false charge and do not put an innocent or honest person to death, for I will not acquit the guilty.