lafter

the lord hears us. I was feeling tired as in mentally of being so close to work......i live quite near my workplace. some call it a blessing but for me i need distance. because i constantly like to separate my work life from my life. haha. not the people. the idea of "going to work" and starting the day so supe early.

so yea monday was that beautiful movie. it was so sweet. though sightly dark. and then just when you thought ok, God is good to me on monday already.....tuesday came and He was even good-er. what happened was i was just taking a stroll or usual brisk walk down outram park through chinatown and guess what? i was trying to avoid those kind of specially designed roads again (civil engineering term) and passed by this club that had comedies every tuesday. live stand up comedies wit comedians talking about 5-10 min each. total about 7 to 10 comedians. i was wearing BRIGHT RED shorts and slippers and glasses. so basically i looked like a............geek? yes. indeed.

i walked up and asked the entrance lady how much a ticket would cost just to listen to their slaptick and tasteless jokes which i already had a taste of in aug 2012. she said ten bucks. i was like......hmm.....then suddenly some foreign student, came up to the club too, with his friends and said "anyone wants to buy my extra ticket, going at ten bucks" i was like "i will buy if its 8 bucks" he said ok. then i said i have to get an ATM because i only have 3 bucks. he said "then buy me a drink and u get this ticket free" i was like ohhh can use my credit card. in the end i just gave him back my ticket which meant free drinks for him and i didnt spend any money. he introduced me to his friends....too. hahaha. so i made friends AND....got to laugh my bluez away!! BUT the humour was very stupid as usual. So,.....a good time of laughs and new friends in my BRIGHT RED shorts and slippers in the middle of near town.

that's God's way of telling me, "I SO know you need a good laugh this week".

talk to me thru anything

That movie. I was surprised. Kind of touched seriously that God would and could speak thru it right to my heart. The stuff that has to be cleared....all the fears, the events that happened that completely "pissed me off"  pardon my language but that was exactly how I felt about cetain things that happened recently in my life that of course I wasn't happy about. In a movie. yes God spoke/spake to my spirit and soul and heart in a movie. Its not about romance or love here. It's about some other things that i recently faced but now have finished with it but still need to know how to "deal" with.
And thru thr protagnist herself in the show, i could use her lines, her exact lines for myself.
"Clean out the bad and the good...from inside you....go go....." something to that effect when she spoke to her guy. she was also trying so hard all the time to prepare before that turning point in her life (hitting 16 yrs old) to hopefully bring out the good side of herself rather than the bad. It was all very metaphoric and deep to me.
And i know i am writing in a cryptic way here but oh well i just realised how strong words can be and yet......when people talk when they are fatigued or angry we cannot take them too seriously. Words are such a double edged sword........to be used and yet not to be taken seriously at certain times. but for sure, there IS an effect. big or small.......there are effects in words.
And YES............YOU made the innemost of our beings. you know every single emotion (look i am not always talking about romantic love etc) that we have and things we go through. everything is transparent, laid before you. How on earth was i ever drawn to this movie, with such a strange genre, that could be so much of what i needed at this point in time.....i think the Lord just knows TOTALLY what we need and want at each step in life and he does , he really does make things happen, people cross our paths, movies where the story or characters speak what you need at that point in time, "coincidences" of bumping into people, reminders of certain people you met who reallly was a live walking example of how effective quiet prayer was....etc.

valentine's day

i can and cant believe it. i was actually dateless the past 2-3 years for vday. i think its at least 2 years...or more. oh well.....let's face it. some things i've learnt from this commercialised occasion are these

v-day is PERSONAL. just because your younger sister or brother has a date or partner doesnt mean things are the same for you.......God writes each love story.....differently! while i sit back and watch and silently applaud (if i do)....i am contented but not

v-day is a day to know yourself and others (who are date-less) more. haha no, kidding. it really means more time to know your good friends or casual friends better......especially those who want to meet up. usually these people are whining and complaining about others heh.......or why they have no dates......again, kidding....the SOLO time you have with yourself watching movie or walking down town or countryside will give you a chance to pray with your eyes open, literally and enjoy scenery. and relax from work stress.

v-day makes you question - who do I really like/love or what type of guy or girl do i really hope for. are my dating methods working?? lol.......

v-day makes you think, "what are people loving these days? is it money or themselves or status or work or security or ......or........love itself." its so easy to fall in love wit the notion of love itself and how "good" it makes you feel about yourself and all the vibes and warm fuzzy feelings you get when in pursuit or being pursued by someone. but true love is a lot about not just sacrifice but also patience (with the person) and self-control and giving and a lot of forgetting yourself........i duno just haven't got to that point for myself.

v-day is a day for people like me to write posts like these........

say what you say

After a while you realize people can say what they say and not mean a thing so the best thing is to judge by what they do and don't do. words spoken hastily or in a frenzy or when afraid or angry or at non-calm state etc.....or the worst when joking.......and it's taken seriously........that's really the most annoying one of them all.

So judge by what they do and don't do, and speech spoken in a calm non agitated state........this London museum pic reminds me of the new stuff i learnt in the Natural History Museum (though this is pic of National History Museum). I actually learnt a bit of forensic science in Natural History Museum!

I've gotten fed so much these few days because of the famous popular CNY in my country......which involves chinese and koreans......mostly chinese. i'm beginning to drop a lot of unnecessary things in my life just to take up the things that are more "important". i think it works that way.

so the only things i hope won't happen now is that i'm not gained too much weight. haha. i wonder what non chinese people do these few days........shop? exercise? walk around? then you realize that as years go by lesser and lesser people come or turn up for extended family gatherings because they start forming their own nuclear (immediate) family or live elsewhere (migrated). i guess i am still "constant" and not much change in that sense and i am in absolutely no hurry to make any major decisions in my lfie so quickly. whyever for anyway?........=) life adapts to me while i adapt to what it throws at me.....haw haw haw!