why is it people only pray when

things happen. Why??? Why????????? Why can't people seek God all the time?

Interesting week. I learnt a lot this week like how seriously,
1) Money doesnt make people happy. It is a practical thing and makes u FEEL secure but doesnt make you deeply happy. I have seen people that earn almost nothing and are extremely satisfied with purpose in life.
2) Being open to God's direction, no matter what it is.....may actually be for good. I was extremely freaked out when i was "dumped" into my Degree course in university, and it was none of my top 7 choices....it was probably my 8th choice....but God indeed gave me one of the happiest 4 years there. happiest and carefree. Except each semester's 3 weeks before exams.


oh well.....i just cannot be bothered to argue with guys posting 'funny' comments on my blog. don't u think it makes you laugh? 

never fight My Will

I would rather let God steer my boat than fight against His will for my life

no faith in this world

Going very deep into questioning myself and others, i think the best gifts in life are not what people think make one happy but rather the simple things in life.

directness

many times people try to change their moods by changing outer circumstances.

I think it works but not on a deep deep level. like the core of one's being.

but i think sometimes God gives u common sense to not do or do certain things. And the wisdom to be direct about it. to others.

sudden fatigue

i never knew tiredness over at  stretch of 5-6 days can suddenly hit you all at once. it happened to me......

but it was kinda fun. cos i talk strange, funny and i dont make any sense when i am very very tired!

But i do very well in boardgames where it involved acquiring resources, when i am tired. i know this doesnt make sense again but thats me.

So.....moral of the story is i really gotta get my 6 to 6 and half hours of good sleep each day if not....

prayer

just realised that i am seriously un-deep in my prayers and lacking faith these two weeks.

I guess its the busyness of worklife starting my new job and such. though on one hand i crave the depth of free time and space to do prayer walks, i believe there's a season for everything (under heaven hahaha cliche!!) and i think this could be purposeful and full utilisation of time.
The unearthing of so many issues came up this week and i am looking into my past as far as 13 years ago to actually "deal with" certain things. I don't think I'll ever forget what happened but i think it was more for good than for bad. ;)

if you dont understand

what i am doing i have to take it away.

to pretend to be bad

when you are actually good, is hypocrisy.

1 Thessalonians 5:11

So encourage each other and build each other up, just as you are already doing.

Even when you feel like screaming or doing something bad....i still gotta try to "build each other up"

tiredness cos i went to sentosa beach part the night before i wrote this post

Haha, now not so scared of dogs after meeting so many of these stray friends in myanmar....they were all nice the most was they trailed or followed behind you for a while then gave up if you don't entertain them with food or touch them. no barkings except to each other.
lol.
burma looks a bit like singapore....the city layout, the way buildings are placed on the streets. traces of the british colony i guess.
they have such a insightful museum 5 levels on world knowledge not just about their country. i spent like 4 hours in it.....really looking at things there......it was worth every dollar spent on entry.
visions of people - not just family and some friends kept coming to me while i was there touring and exploring the place. it could be from God....cos i started praying n all that for these people.
God is interesting, i think. just imagine, when he made adam and eve they had absolutely no choice of who their spouse would be. its like "here take her" "here take him" and done deal. no bargains, no exchange.
in this modern day context some people like 20% would embrace this idea to spare their brain cells and nerve wrecking dating or hunting.
80% would object this as they want to hunt or date around first before settling.
so let's see i have been going on dates for the last.....5 years since i thought of this school of thought.
from experience, the quality dates usually come when you're contented with LIFE and purpose in life. the haphazard ones usually comes when you're in the mode of looking. trust me on that. the logic is this: when you're in the mode of looking, you
1) are not BEING your true self and natural mode or who u usually are. so how can anyone KNOW the real you and like you for you?
2) you get the dates that are most available aka desperate so most likely....ok possible but Slimmer chance of getting people being on their natural mode and being themselves.