when i don't, i do

i cant believe i actually genuinely enjoyed my tuition session yesterday from the bottom of my heart. i actually was 1)myself with her (14 yr old girl), 2)shared about some parts of my life (interesting parts) 3)joked about life and 4)laughed a lot so sometimes the irony is..........this. that when i don't (think i like something) i do....when i do (think i like something), i don't. there's this verse in the bible...and i don't wanna spoil the whole thing at this point of time. God help me....?

deep

From past experience and observation over time and situations i have been put in sometimes unwillingly due to my 1) large extended family (cousins etc), 2) social situations because of singapore being so area-small we have to bump into people all the time, 3) being in a community no matter how you try to move away from your own house i feel, the best thing in life is really just to have a very strong and clear purpose in life. the other things in life can be really disappointing or people can be irritating but if your purpose and goal in life is clear and you are really looking to fulfil it and your hope, confidence and joy is in God, you will be totally deeply, deep-down, happy and positive and at peace.

the wallet

(for own records and if people want to read this and they understand the way i write...)

something happened that was very strange this week. i seriously remember bringing the wallet out of the office, on the mrt, home for dinner, out to meet a friend, out to clark quay, where i am usually go.....

I discovered it was missing only at about early in the morning when i was about to take a cab.

So as usual i panicked...and my mind went blank. i couldn't even recall the day's events. who i met, where i went.....plus there was this strange "drunk" girl with i and my friend who was like babbling and undecided about what she was going to do. that was quite tiring...talking to her....

then after like 2 and half hours sleep....borrowed 10 bucks from my friend, walked to the mrt, took a train......panicked in the train, prayed those heart-felt prayer to Him.
Then i was planning out my day and finances (10 bucks) how to allocate for transport for getting my atm cards all redone etc.

THEN.......

I reached the office. Walked up the stairs. I had the shock of my life.
The WALLET was right there ON MY TABLE! I CANT BELIEVE IT! i didn't take it home?

things NOT to write on your blog

Hahaha i was told this by one of my mentors long ago....its hilarious:

Things not to write on your blog:

1) Your criteria for Mr. or Miss Right. This is because people interested will start acting or "being" or "having" the criteria you want. oh well.....i duno how this makes sense but it's good to have somewhat somesort of mystery.....i think.....

to be continued......

encounter

encountering people
encountering God

then again....

Easter weekend just passed. and in a whirl. so soon it was gone just like that...
I was pretty frenzied as well...oh well don't want to talk about it...but be assured it was very happening in a good and bad way. But interesting nonetheless.

So anyway...that song in the previous entry never fails to inspire me and keep me reminded of the start, where things all began......which is with Him (God himself). All things came from Him and through Him anyway...so it all belongs to Him.

And despite my thoughts sometimes slightly swaying towards the stressed-and-negative edge at times....especially when I have to deal with the difficult...situations, and i just wanna go far away and take a long breather and do what i am passionate about and the fresh air, somehow God always provides a way out. I don't know how but He does.

And so here I am, hoping and praying for breakthroughs in some places. for good of course. there are quite a few items on my prayer list. sometimes we wonder why we even pray but if you don't even pray it could go worse so should pray at least or try to. i'm not sure if people connect with God more through prayer or thru singing or thru doing but oh well.......

lyrics to be heeded to

If faith can move the mountains
Let the mountains move
We come with expectation
Waiting here for You, waiting here for You

You're the Lord of all creation
And still You know my heart
The Author of Salvation
You've loved us from the start

Waiting here for You
With our hands lifted high in praise
And it's You we adore
Singing Alleluia

You are everything You've promised
Your faithfulness is true
And we're desperate for Your presence
All we need is You

Bridge
Singing Alleluia
Alleluia, alleluia, alleluia


"Waiting here for you" by Chris Tomlin, Martin Smith and Jesse Reeves

Happy despite the lowness or "dead" love life. at least for now...tons of things to do and to be done. yay! for the "to-do" list......ergh......