if u desire things of God, it's yours

Colossians 3:16
Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly; in all wisdom teaching and admonishing one another with psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts unto God.

Psalms 1: 1 Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the wicked, Nor standeth in the way of sinners, Nor sitteth in the seat of scoffers

Romans 8:26
And in like manner the Spirit also helpeth our infirmity: for we know not how to pray as we ought; but the Spirit himself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered;

Romans 8:34
who is he that condemneth? It is Christ Jesus that died, yea rather, that was raised from the dead, who is at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us.

Hebrews 7:25
Wherefore also he is able to save to the uttermost them that draw near unto God through him, seeing he ever liveth to make intercession for them.

Isaiah 53:12
Therefore will I divide him a portion with the great, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong; because he poured out his soul unto death, and was numbered with the transgressors: yet he bare the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors.

what starts out bad can turn out good

Encouragement for the week. or day.
Your day might start out totally horrendous and shocking even. but if your heart and soul is set on staying faithful, meaning trusting and seeking Him, not taking things into your own hands (a.k.a. retaliating) and knowing He works for the good of those who love Him, your day might have all kinds of strangest twists for the good.

I just had a firsthand experience of how my day was slightly "interesting" at first, meaning getting accused non verbally by people on a professional basis during one of those conferences then...having headache, then not getting any responses or MOSTLY NEGATIVE responses to my smses and whatsapp messages about joining me for dinner so i ended up alone for dinner (but i think God did it so i have to spend time talking to Him) then going for a long walk to get dinner (1hour30 min walking but by choice) then waiting 20 min for a bus which i took and was still late (for choir practice).
then....

I immediately felt welcomed. by the atmosphere and people. They apologised for not emailing me....can't believe it. Offered cupcakes for someone's bday. They wanted to meet for a chat next week about joining choir. I also happened to meet one of your buddies who happen to be passing by the church (seriously, not kidding). Coincidence.

He introduced me to a cute stranger who happened to be walking same direction to mrt.
And i became friends with the stranger. Friends only yea but at least we're friends...not bad.

I get to do a long 30min walk to orchard mrt chatting with your old buddy.
I returned the favor and intro him to your most eligible female friend. LOL! Hope they hit it off.

I have heard quite a few stories of people who wanted to do the lord's mission and came to their country of choice with as little as $45 dollars (my currency) and they just trusted God. They never looked back or had money for return flight, about number of people they knew in that country, how to survive.

this i heed easily

7 “Hear me, you who know what is right,
you people who have taken my instruction to heart:
Do not fear the reproach of mere mortals
or be terrified by their insults.
isaiah 51

and the heart found its place in this world....

And there i realised along with all the confusion, frustration and division....
Where it was supposed to be.
What was supposed to happen to settle it.
The truth was out.
I was not the only one who craved the independence, freedom and space and individuality and personal friendships.
I immediately felt a gush of wind of release when i made up my own mind and took the stand.
The stand to be totally who He made me as - complete with the flaws and strengths.

Never mind the cash. As long as there is enough to cover cost.
Never mind the times i have to think on my feet, sense things around, use sixth sense, build relationships with others. It builds character and experience.
Never mind the occasional feeling of being lost or alone. I have Him (God not guy).
Never mind the extra chores to do. I have space to be there for others who need a listening ear.
Never mind the comments from others about thinking what I am doing with this freedom. I have One who watches the motivations of my heart.

God would rather us make mistakes and keep a right heart, than do everything right with a bad heart. (Proverbs 4:23)

I didn't quit the person/people.

I quit the pressure.

seize the interesting

If you walk down memory lane sometimes you realise the things that hit you on a personal level come back and you remember the happy moments etc with these people.......
and then...
they become a memory again. for a while.
i wish i could write a book.
maybe i will.

i am so bad

at lying.
i seriously cannot lie.

When God at first made man,

Having a glass of blessings standing by,
“Let us,” said he, “pour on him all we can.
Let the world’s riches, which dispersèd lie,
Contract into a span.”

So strength first made a way;
Then beauty flowed, then wisdom, honour, pleasure.
When almost all was out, God made a stay,
Perceiving that, alone of all his treasure,
Rest in the bottom lay.

“For if I should,” said he,
“Bestow this jewel also on my creature,
He would adore my gifts instead of me,
And rest in Nature, not the God of Nature;
So both should losers be.

“Yet let him keep the rest,
But keep them with repining restlessness;
Let him be rich and weary, that at least,
If goodness lead him not, yet weariness
May toss him to my breast.”

The Pulley
By George Herbert

it was a crazy week worrying about love and resources

when actually there was nothing that much to worry about.

not that i am fully resourced or wealthy but there was enough to cover bills and some (savings).

But anyhow there were other things i went thru that well were personal and it was headache plus heartache. oh well...so it wasnt a great week at all. seriously. but i believe all things work out for good for those who love Him. we don't have to get even with others or be angry at all. God will work things out in His best timings. Like in the case of many of the past. who faced inprisonment, injustice, etc....they held on to their trust. In Him