2 insurance closures, 2 movies, 2 interviews (in one day)

Proud of myself. If you're confused, read the title. it happened all from 10am till 11.18pm yesterday (the last event was 2nd movie).

This is the first time I have had 6 appointments, 2 of which happened to be same place as the previous appointment, so 4 places.

First interview.....very very interesting. Liked the company culture. Very multi national. Job scope ok but need tons of "Ready, shine, let's go!....(one hour plus of talking later).....Let's go to the next one." That kind of energy EVERY single day of work life. Keeps you on the move, smiling, cheerful, meeting people, and talking a lot, being creative and exciting.

Second interview...er....slower paced, very nurturing and relaxed. At own pace, doing what i like a lot. But pay wise will remain pretty much the same till...at least 1 and half years. But pay was never the first reason of consideration. Passion for a job scope is. So...

First movie: total flop. Nowhere boy the movie.
2nd movie: 4.5 stars over 5. the infidel. extremely funny but more memorable is the strong messages behind it.

By insurance closures i dont mean taking up a policy. I mean rejecting one agent and freelooking another one's policy....jialat. i am such a frugal scrooge

Like Jacob

Like Jacob I will not move until you speak.
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You said "He was insulted but did not relaliate, he suffered and made no threats. Instead he entrusted himself to him who judges justly." 1 Peter 3:23
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I am shocked and amazed you know the exact page and exact verse in the book to flip to when I can't verbalise my thoughts became troubled.

does this bug you? the entries

Er.....Ok i realised why i wrote and have written so many blog entries. It's cos i had no other outlet to really get creative. No way am i staying in the field i studied and purused for years any longer. leave it to the guys to handle it.

yup tried and tested, the white flag is up, the towel thrown in BIG TIME. As much as God desires us to persevere, I cannot leave my talents (or what i see as talents) to remain buried like in the parable of the talents.

And I must use whatever motivates me, keeps me going every day, helps others, makes someone see another tomorrow. it's gotta be original too. It's gotta be either altruistic, of direct service, communicative, creatively thinking of ideas, positive, helpful, admirable, noble....these.

Philippians 4:8

8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

I remember in Secondary school Sec 1, i was in a mission school (long story but regretted leaving that school big time), it was a mixed school with guys, and there was this HUGE verse on a banner in the hall. I think it was weaved into the fabric of the cloth banner in gold thread.

all those mrt posters

I like those MRT posters that go
"It doesn't matter how slow you go but that you keep going."

Ahhh....for the job changes and resume, or scars in the resume, I like to stand up for myself and say this,
"Your calling is between you and God." At the end of the day when you go back up there, you are not going to be accountable or answer your parents (unless you don't provide for them), your relatives, your best friend, your spouse, your dog(?).

I haven't totally prayed about this strong interest of mine to pursue this course of study but,

With personal interest, if He should shut the door to that interest we have, He shuts it. He is sovereign after all. This sovereignty allows us but steers us in the right direction should we be totally out of track. So we can relax on the journey. Takes away the anxiety.

silly

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Phew! I don't know how but things got resolved today. Must be God who helped. there was a good talk that opens up issues that well, some of my friends sometimes feel awkward talking about but where I have no problems with. It's always me, who has no problems with being totally myself, very honest, etc. it was almost funny.

in giving u receive

Every time I go overseas or do work or volunteer at a job that does not come naturally to me I realize I am stretched mentally and this is very rewarding.
I finally stepped into S.L. hospital on sat. And whoa, it was a lot bigger than it seemed. Tons of facilities too. Clean and cosy. Most of my cell group had to pull ourselves out of bed in the morning just to reach on time. I was fortunate to live nearby.

We waited like 1 hour 15 minutes before the Heard nurse came to brief us. Waiting really pays, come to think of it, maybe God is teaching us all a lesson to wait. And the rewards that stem from waiting. During the waiting period, we were engaged in small chat in our own groups, the guitarists trying to get their chords together and also practicing. So our waiting was not in vain. I see this as a good metaphor for waiting in life. Most of the time, a lot of good things need time to happen and this doesn't involve blind sitting around and moping but preparation and anticipation or expectation.

Finally when we could start our "show", the starting part was a bit messy, songs wise. But they LOVED our little efforts in the song choices - Theresa Teng was their favourite singer, Chinese song of The Gift was received great. At first there was no chance to share the Good News (gospel). We were chatting with them only. Then we were ushered to a special ward where there was an old lady bedridden, supposedly having quite serious dementia. She, however responded! she teared during the song and i saw her expression change. at first i thought it was merely a nostalgic reaction to Theresa teng's songs or CHINESE songs. But when we asked if we could pray the salvation prayer with her, she said yes in chinese. And she followed sentence by sentence the whole prayer.

This wasn't the first and only case. It followed by another old lady (oops, senior citizen), who clapped and sang with us. Followed by the prayer.

Then this sweet old couple. The lady was in the wheelchair as the guy had his legs amputated so she had to go over to the male ward to hear us sing. They were holding hands throughout the whole songs session. No I am no kidding. My cell group was like
"Ohhhh.......soo sweet. Look at them. *gush* " these comments include the males in the cell group. Hahahah.

Then this other old guy who spoke perfect english. He teared and said the prayer too. I didn't expect nor imagine the "senior generation" of people would be sooo...open to THE GOOD NEWS. Come on, it's the good news! accept it, Embrace it, people all over e world!

Ahh.....i wish i had the ability to write a book on relationships and love. But i'm not as equipped yet. but there is the passion lying low there. latent energy. paper journals, get ready! I heard so many interesting stories this week. Stemming from the counselling-mode/motive i have to hear people's stories out and offer prayer for them. Praying for salvations of the senior couple too.

The road to anywhere worth it is never easy but in the end, clean hands (no bad actions) and a pure heart (no bad motives) will keep me in God's will. I hope.

the trouble with facebook

my mentoring group that i'm supposed to be accountable to met up today and...we all realised that we don't like facebook or couldn't really be bothered with it. the reason being,
1) people see what others put on your wall and the info you put about yourself. - No privacy.
2) perception of you may be based on what others write on your wall. (But the truth is who we are is what God says about us and not what others say. Besides people don't even know the context of some of the random messages at all).
3) To set privacy settings, you have to go through immense trouble to tick on boxes u want people to see, and the names of people who can see them etc.....argh.

Other than facebook I'm just thankful God is bringing me, and some of my friends through this process of job direction and other directions in life. No big decisions in life should ever be rushed. And i think what i learn and receive, the lessons, the growth, the change, the friendship with God that would grow, the people that we meet along the way, the giving and receiving, far more valuable.

the resume is a long way to go

Argh i realised that i'm just at the tip of the start of the word perseverance with regard to my work life.
Frankly, ok my resume IS lousy quality. And i'm supposed to be improving it. this is what people tell me.

However I look at bible stories and i'm comforted seriously by how men and women gave up their jobs to simply follow Christ. But i agree that you have to apply it to the modern context about how u can also shine for Him at workplace.

The bible mentions little about women though unless being just at home and nursing kids, teaching them....Jews were what...mcp people? sigh....thANk God for gender equality now.

I, despite being a girl, can never seem to be too open about sharing about my secrets on my blog. not vaguely. That aspect remains on personal diaries. 80% of it anyway.

Lesson learnt at sermons this weekend was :
He (God) has done it before. He will do it again.

on career and calling again

Now this topic has been on my mind for months even years. and i regret not thinking seriously about my next steps during my last year in university, if not right at the first year.
"Why did you not think of such a big decision in life since Year 3 of uni life at least!"
Ok so anywayz....from the book i'm reading "Mystery of God's will" by Charles Swindoll, yup, he gave the analogy of a ship.
The sailor sets the direction of the ship right at the start. The people on the ship are free to move anywhere they like on board the ship. Sing, dance, eat, bathe, talk, move. But the ship is still steering all of them in one direction.
He said that's like God's sovereignty over us. We're free to do what we like and want but the sail of our lives, the overall picture and direction, the ultimate destiny will still be in His Hands.
So still....the decision lies with me at the end.
But....i roughly got my plan this time round.

musings

I'm not totally unonline. I try to blog but sparingly so i know this is where i was at this point of my life. Change is the only constant thing i realised. Even in and on a job, the way u feel about a job changes as you know your scope better, the people better, the comfort is, it's like a shoe. it becomes natural.

I wish there was never the silly stereotype that only girls are soul-open. I don't think males are that soul-shy seriously. They have lots to say in the thoughts and feelings department believe me. I watch movies so I know. Lol. No seriously. Why are girls more open in sharing

Why do you have to do this to me, God, sometimes i ask, in an exasperated tone. U know just when i've made up my mind to stick to my job, today i received a call. Sigh. :) but :( or rather, :s