What a day....

Today i got strict with myself. Time to really do something meaningful and the stuff i usually do for a hobby which makes no sense to most normal people.

Which is to 'go out there' into the most normal places of this world. And, with a purpose. which is to get them coming for this really hip and cool christmas musical....

I definitely met the people i wanted to meet....one whole long table of them. from all different countries, again. Except argh...i didn't get the cambodia gal's number....but there's always a way.

Even though i missed the ntu class outing in the afternoon due to some rehearsal (for a play i'm helping out).....the time to meet another group of people was redeemed at the last moment as i scampered my way to the quay. by the way, even though that was one of the worst salsa clubs i've ever seen, only because i got rejected for one dance, but only once...haha, at least my time was well spent. i do pray and hope to meet my first ntu class....before 17th dec.

jabez

oopz here's the correct FULL prayer of Jabez in old testament!! :) woohoohoo!! what greattt weekk.......me totally being able to be myself. praise the lorddd..... with freedom comes responsibility

1 Chronicles 4:10 Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, "Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain." And God granted his request.

gulp.

what a strange situation i'm in now. nothing bad, nothing scary. a lot of newness thats all. :) thank You. like the prayer of jabez says "that you would enlarge my territory" but not out of my means or ability.

is it really You?

oK I've got so much so say and so little netisphere to actually talk because i have a lot on my mind. I'm worried about my friend or rather, concerned. then again, i'm concerned about myself too and what steps to take next. honestly, even if i'm interested in the job i'm in, there are doubts. there are always doubts no doubt. in life....sometimes i think , only think, or feel, or it's in my opinion, that you have to take a blind step forward. then let God work. strange because that was a sign or poster i saw today while passing by a company at my workplace. "All our employees take the steps that bring us to success."

And the movie today. i didn't even care if it was lame humor or slapstick (tropic thunder, btw) etc....it was a learning one where all of us learnt sth. like, how in a real life scenario, you don't have your script. the best movies are produced when you actually are thrown (mostly unknowingly or unwillingly) into a real life situation and deal with it with all that you learnt and know and have. that's real, see. no more textbooks or manuals. so here i am......arghh........i gotta talk to this person and that person now about this and that stuff. take more initiative to bring up a conversation about stuff. i know i know i always look bold and stuff but inside i do get scared at times.

And.....the number of coincidental bumpings today (4 girls who were ex schoolmates from different stages in my life)....this is no coincidence.
Ok I know i seem cliche always saying "God help me" or blah blah spiritual or religious stuff but very tough stuff are left with God alone......cos man may not comprehend everything.....i think i'll go and pray. i feel God has been revealing stuff to me these days. not all spiritual or religious all the time but oh well....i'm learning. The verse 'The secret things belong to the Lord makes me really wonder what it means when God said this to Moses this in Deuteronomy 29. Does it mean the secret sins of man or the secret will of the Lord for the future, or the Second coming of Christ? or all the above? only the Lord knows...

helping

it was so nice being able to help two people yesterday, one with her new house in settling in in a rented apartment by herself since she's a foreigner. the other was helping a parent raising a 2 year old kid find a job....

salsa in westmall

its good when your own family volunteers you to go on stage to do a dance with some volunteers......in front of a crowd of people.....but when it really happens.....and they take a video of you, thats quite something eh. well it happened to me today...it was funny though. because all the volunteers who apparently "didn't know how to do basic salsa" were actually pretty "fast learners". lol. well it was fun educating my own family on what salsa is all about. so finally, they get to see that it's pretty cool.

Learnt how to play more frisbee today....man, it got better at a big sacrifice....blue black bumps on my left arm.....then they can go "oh its normal.....very common." made me think hard by just this statement. is it to make me more tough again? just like volleyball in sec school.....i could write a book chapter on the volleyball lessons in sec 2.....

The best part of waiting.....i finally got the song book i wanted and NEARLY bought 3 months ago. "dctalk's greatest hits". it was going for HALF PRICE. patience pays off.

our gift is our lives

dear lord,

help me to do the right things. say the right things. I leave these crazy romantic thoughts in your hands!!!! u know totally what i'n thinking....hehe....help!!!
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Speaking on career, I would rather the applications not give me an interview or have me out at the first round than after 3-4 rounds then tell me i'm to go.....thankfully, this has not happened (me always being myself and 95% honest all the way). Honesty is the way to go. Tactfulness and sensitivity included i will still be honest. Likewise i wish employers were honest too about their hiring criteria, acceptance rate etc. but that is soo few and far between. it should be a two way thing.

Why would anyone want to hire the make-believe version of me, or the pretended one, or the hiding-things one? And then have to call me into the office 4 to 7 months later and go "Thanks for smoking me in your interview." lol.

For the hidden potential (which i believe i will see) in this current job i have, i will hold on to it. I mean there are pretty nice stuff here i get to observe, like the seniors sharing their working experiences, their paternal advice to you, the manageable scope of work (finally). u never know what God is thinking. His thots are far higher than our thots. People of the bible never knew what strange things they were told or called to do till the whole plan was revealed.

life on earth is fleeting. What we make of our lives is our gift to Him.
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politics (usa elections)

---Yay. Its obama!! (USA elections)---

thotful thoughts

questions on sufficiency. to each his own as the saying goes. but then again.....ok maybe its about getting used to different aspects of life.

elections. finally the world heaves a sigh of relief along with america. the tension is over. a new tension that breathes "whoa, let's see what lies ahead" arriveth.

a job or career. either way its temporary. it's prob either short-term or long-term.