and the heart found its place in this world....

And there i realised along with all the confusion, frustration and division....
Where it was supposed to be.
What was supposed to happen to settle it.
The truth was out.
I was not the only one who craved the independence, freedom and space and individuality and personal friendships.
I immediately felt a gush of wind of release when i made up my own mind and took the stand.
The stand to be totally who He made me as - complete with the flaws and strengths.

Never mind the cash. As long as there is enough to cover cost.
Never mind the times i have to think on my feet, sense things around, use sixth sense, build relationships with others. It builds character and experience.
Never mind the occasional feeling of being lost or alone. I have Him (God not guy).
Never mind the extra chores to do. I have space to be there for others who need a listening ear.
Never mind the comments from others about thinking what I am doing with this freedom. I have One who watches the motivations of my heart.

God would rather us make mistakes and keep a right heart, than do everything right with a bad heart. (Proverbs 4:23)

I didn't quit the person/people.

I quit the pressure.

seize the interesting

If you walk down memory lane sometimes you realise the things that hit you on a personal level come back and you remember the happy moments etc with these people.......
and then...
they become a memory again. for a while.
i wish i could write a book.
maybe i will.

i am so bad

at lying.
i seriously cannot lie.

When God at first made man,

Having a glass of blessings standing by,
“Let us,” said he, “pour on him all we can.
Let the world’s riches, which dispersèd lie,
Contract into a span.”

So strength first made a way;
Then beauty flowed, then wisdom, honour, pleasure.
When almost all was out, God made a stay,
Perceiving that, alone of all his treasure,
Rest in the bottom lay.

“For if I should,” said he,
“Bestow this jewel also on my creature,
He would adore my gifts instead of me,
And rest in Nature, not the God of Nature;
So both should losers be.

“Yet let him keep the rest,
But keep them with repining restlessness;
Let him be rich and weary, that at least,
If goodness lead him not, yet weariness
May toss him to my breast.”

The Pulley
By George Herbert

it was a crazy week worrying about love and resources

when actually there was nothing that much to worry about.

not that i am fully resourced or wealthy but there was enough to cover bills and some (savings).

But anyhow there were other things i went thru that well were personal and it was headache plus heartache. oh well...so it wasnt a great week at all. seriously. but i believe all things work out for good for those who love Him. we don't have to get even with others or be angry at all. God will work things out in His best timings. Like in the case of many of the past. who faced inprisonment, injustice, etc....they held on to their trust. In Him

birth verse 7-7

Deuteronomy 8:7 NIV
For the LORD your God is bringing you into a good land—a land with streams and pools of water, with springs flowing in the valleys and hills;