i guess i myself am not as expressive as i thought i should be or would be. words don't come so easily (lol like in the song) sometimes and even like emotions - good or bad or both can come out like later haha...oops.
but that's exactly what we call human or what humans do. sometimes we just forget to remember (The irony) what we have....and forget the positive changes we have compared to last time. so there, first i wanna thank the lord for giving me the useful site www.meetup.com though you really meet every one for the first time almost every time. after a while those meetups you go to regularly...the people eventually also become your acquaintance then friends.
i thank God for dreams - strange or those of the past or future or even when i see myself in other countries and i wonder where i am. and in different settings - sometimes in a cottage, sometimes in a huge house or a mall, sometimes at the seaside, or at a village or forest or on some quest or with various types of ppl or alone. so there's the sense of deja vu at times.
though i believe in ultimately the predestination of where God wants me and others to be, we still have to make choices most of the time and along the way.
i thank Him for concerned students / children who think simple, are childlike and can spot things that adults can't spot and help me solve mysteries like my very "private" life.
haiz that's the thing about the human curious mind. we keep digging for facts and info till we solve mysteries, rite? or maybe its just me with mysteries to solve.

a trip to bkk

I am thankful for each chapter of life the Lord gives me or doesnt give me.
Thank God for the 10 round run where i only warmed up after 4 and half rounds.

Focusing on good things...oh i had so much fun going Bkk with my friend "Jason". lol. It's a staged name hah. his real name is Meng something (do u believe it?). we talked more than we looked at sights and scenery though. haha. which is very good for building relationships. I mean, knowing a person more and seeing if he gets my wavelength / frequency or flow of thought is no easy feat especially when i am on the move AND in a new place totally disoriented. Imagine coming to a new country you haven't done much research on and feeling lost and a bit scared and there's this guy next to you talking at 70wpm (like my typing speed) or more. and mostly gibberish. ok no lah, he was good at reading maps. very good at it. so he verbalises how he reads a map. heheh. little arguments some of the time were more like bickering between siblings which was very amusing to myself but i didnt reveal it. Now the main thing is to make him tell me who he is. without stage name etc and fake voice (or maybe it's real and his voice is originally like that). hopefully, the pimples are fake. *crosses fingers*

I like that place a lot because mainly it's huge. in terms of land area. i love the river where the transport by a big boat down chao phrya river is so much cheaper than taking tuk tuk or train or taxi.
Though none go with me i still will follow that song, who can forget? however i think that applies to following God more than going to a place alone.

As for my jobs situation again. multiple closed doors can also really be a blessing in disguise. God doesn't close doors when you pray like mad and didn't do bad things / good. there's something called "A better plan" when you really pray and there are closed doors. so look out for that "better plan" God has.

imputation

[im-pyoot]

verb (used with object), imputed, imputing.

3.

Law. to ascribe to or charge (a person) with an act or quality because of the conduct of another over whom one has control or for whose acts or conduct one is responsible.

That's what He did for us. 

Yesu, Isaa, Jesus himself.