Ok,
Job's going pretty ok. not fantastic but better than i thot.
i cant believe it.
I'm really thankful yet....wondering what the next decision is.

now.....i'm either going to the A side or stay in the B side.
one side looks easy but requires more skill than i think.
the other....doesn't look easy and is not easy. but is a good skill.

tough choices

What was meant to be an inquiry about a job turned out to be a counselling session

so coool. think Daddy up there just speaks love sometimes. i was enquiring this company about a job position.......so when i got there late, flustered and the person handling my questions and telling me about the job ended up giving me a counselling session of my dreams and goals in life. and telling about his life and his two daughters' dreams which they pursued and got. was very assuring and affirming. it was sooo comforting to know that heavenly Dad just spoke to me thru this person. haha. he even asked me to visit him again any time. after one meeting only!! Dad-up-there sure uses the strangest situations and people to tell u He cares! :)

today was a bit people-frenly, work-slack and the most amazing part?
i could see (figuratively) God's hand move mightily in my office....
step
by
step

pig out!

in need of a carbohydrate break

this first half of the week i've been eating.......sunday's seafood buffet with YZ, his "good friend" and seet. the eating was wow (duno if that's good or not la). we just ate like total gluttons! i gobbled
4 huge pieces of crab (parts)
9 prawns
100g of bbq chicken at least
40g of bbq mutton
2 chicken wings
one bowl of rice
yong tau foo
2 quail eggs
icecream

no kidding!! because of the 2.5 hour recee and phototaking......where we had to stand in the drizzle at times and walk a lot!! monday was thai food for a colleague's farewell.
today? met up with fairfield gal pals......much carbos. argh
so......well.......haha
those morning jogs help a lot....

goals

Why i AM staYing in engineering

1) it would still take me 4 years to earn money for my master's degree (woot!!) either way...but shorter for engineering cos can get promoted (better check if teaching can get promoted in 3 yrs)
2) since i'm gonna be in the teaching line the rest of my life.....might as well do engineering for now.......then still can teach Engineering if i want to. can teach polytechnic or jc physics too if get working experience....so more options.
3) i'm only 3 months plus here........how can i tell if i truly dislike or like it??!!
4) i must train my "staying power" for MiSSioNz.......
5) prayer (and true worship of the right God) changes me and changes situations!!

wedding

the first wedding of 2007

i think my parents have been wayy cool. for the FIRST time......after 23.45 years....they LET me stay out till 2am.....last night with 3 buddies to watch fireworks and makan.
pauline's wedding followed 8.5 hours later. fwaahhhh. pretty lady and handsome kahwoon in contacts. i teared at the vows as it was sweettt.

ok sigh. now back to re-ConStRuCtiNg my job....literally and figuratively. making up for a lot of lost time. i cant have thoughts of changing so fast. the learning curve always takes time. but yea, still hanging on the line....take a deep breath!!

heard God asking me "how much do u love me?" today. during the wedding.