to pursue or not

Tsk tsk....this week was quite terrible. more like dealing with difficult people......sheesh. I hope my efforts was worth it....though....i was more heavily reliant on what i could do....what is within my reach and not so much praying. but so many things are learnt just handling your own SELF (thoughts, desires, temper, irritations, frustrations, fears, set backs)

To pursue this wild dream or not....if i do it, others might be more inspired to pursue theirs. if i don't, i live a normal but calm life...chuckle seriously.

the game

The LOVE of money is the root of all evil, that's what the bible says and it's true to at least quite a large extent. i notice people get all bitchy, jealous and catty over who earns more or if you friend earns $500 more than you or more, you start expecting them to pay for drinks or a meal at least. or you (maybe me) starts wondering why they seem so lazy but get paid well. its the whole stupid game of "Who-earns-more?" or simply competing and using money or some other thing as a yardstick with which to measure our worth or our value or our what? Who even brings money along with them when they leave the earth? Our bank accounts become but worm-food.

If it's not money, its probably popularity, looks, social class, fame, influence, number of kids, who i know, position etc etc.

it never ends.

why not compete on who is more contented.........who is more satisfied with what God has given them.....compete on who can maximise what little assets they have most.....or compete on who wholly seeks God and His purposes most.......the latter would be most tough to reach and fathom, as spiritual things are not seen with the naked eye. then again, it is of greatest worth.