we also take honest stock at what was achieved and lacking in the past few months. For me,
it's scary but good to know what I am really doing and where I'm headed for. I think truth can
always be seen in two lights: The good and the bad. For every point in reality, there's a good
side and a bad. It's which we choose to focus on.
I chose to take an overseas break for a few days and come back home to this self-appraisal.
On the conscience side, effort-wise, with all honesty and knowledge, i have put in 90 percent
of my effort. Some weeks took a toll and i put in 110%, other weeks were easier and i put in 80%.
On the interest side, I have seen the harsher parts of a job that looks rosy the first 2 weeks.
Heavy multitasking is required, which is what women are good at anyway. Actually we're just
good at putting what's important first then balancing the rest on our fingers. Weightloss is inevitable,
running around a school for lessons, walking to and fro school, teaching.
The parts that I thought i would never grow to love, i grew to love. That is, the liking-to-teach-people
-who -hate-maths part. This was one of the somethings i learnt "the hard way". Certain kids respond
to the soft patient approach, and others (usually the very bright ones) need the push to do better in
class. The most fulfilling part was derived from making people who hate Maths start to like Maths at least a little.
Little by little, I know that the lord is just moulding our character more than giving us comfort, call it learning "the hard way" or whichever way He thinks best fits us. Our dear Father in Heaven knows the best paths in life for us and all we have to do is not just trust Him, but seek Him, His will and plans for us. this is one of the most wonderful mysteries of life.....
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