nostalgia II

I had an extremely symbollic dream last night. and i am shocked that it was totally real and life-like and did not fade from memory during the dream (while dreaming i knew it was a dream) and even when i woke up every bit of it was fresh and real.

so there he was. (my real uncle) in the dream. talking to me about wanting to bring me to the other side of the river in this narrow boat. the river was black and choppy. i didn't know if i liked the boat nor the water. so i kept hesitating. then he started telling me about how he wanted to patch up with my aunt and he did go to her to tell her that. she just really smiled magnanimously (her usual way) and accepted him back, as in remarried him. after their years of divorce. but the strange part was i felt happy and at peace.. so that was a little cool. but i was shocked still.

then back to the scene of the boat on choppy and dirty water. i was like "no way its so scary, the water. i don't wanna use a narrow boat to get through this". and putting on my life jacket, my uncle said a little frustratedly, "ok then go your own way." AND I DID!!! i didn't care if it was offensive i just needed to get through that place without dying or something.

so i don't know how on earth i crossed to the other side safey and drily while he was turning open the dam in the river so the water gushed and pushed the boat to the other side. it was pretty fun and scary. but my uncle survived! whoa....i would never take that risk.

but there i ended up, in fmss. (my secondary school for only the whole of sec 1). i was in that school for a year in 1996 (in real life too). in the dream it was 1999, sec 4 for me. It was a new building. and different design etc. i spoke to some old teachers. i had no idea why but i just wanted to change back to leave my all-girls school (nygh) to go back to fmss (mixed school) from my girls' school. i told them "Hi Mrs X, I was here in sec 1. I want to come back for this final year. Can I?"

the HOD (some math teacher) called for the principal. she walked in. elegant, tanned, longer hair, Mrs T P.K. "Sorry, as this is the final year and O levels is soon, we cant let u change schools like that."

Then i was like so accepting of it, i don't know why. It just made sense. I looked at her, nodded and walked away, disappointed but accepting.
Then i woke.

God are you telling me something?